I love Jack Johnson!

The title of this song is cute too. Banana Pancakes. :D

Another of my favourite track by Jack Johnson is, Better Together. Go listen to it! It's awesome. His songs make me sway my head from side to side, tap my toes without fail.

It's like the kinda songs you wld listen off the starting of some romantic comedy movie. Haha.

Oh! He's hawaiian, btw. (:

Ok, I'm done.

I'm supposed to be on medication, I took it only once and stopped for like 2 days. :/ My parents wld kill me if they know Im not taking the medication the doctor had prescribed.

I feel dehydrated. I need water, a drink. I need a cold drink!

Some of you probably know about Michael Jackson's death.

Yes, he's dead. You probably heard it from your friends, online. Or through text messages, or see it on yahoo.com/ google.com/ msn.com which they place it on the main page, headlines of that sort.

I did not know till my bro told me this morn. Saying he recieved a text from his friend, saying M.J's dead.

He passed away this afternoon(America's time.) which is around 5+am, local time. He died of cardiac arrest..

"A cardiac arrest, also known as cardiopulmonary arrest or circulatory arrest, is the abrupt cessation of normal circulation of the blood due to failure of the heart to contract effectively during systole.[1]

A cardiac arrest is different from (but may be caused by) a heart attack or myocardial infarction, where blood flow to the still-beating heart, is interrupted (as in cardiogenic shock)."

For more information about Cardiac arrest, you can go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cardiac_arrest.
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Who wld have imagine, King of POP to die at the age of 50? I'm one of the many millions out there who have not given a thought about M.J's death at, 50. It's scary..

Dying at the age of 50 is way tooooo young. :/

I'm not a hard-core fan of M.J. But I can say, I grew up listening to his songs. I watched his videos when I was a kid.

Amazed by his sweet dance moves, I remember my brothers watching this one 30mins long music video of his for more than 10 times. That video is really awesome! All the characters played in the video is none other but M.J, himself.

One can never be sick of listening to his music he had made from the old days, Billie Jean/ Smooth Criminal/ Thriller/ Beat It.

The guy who had won so many grammy/ music awards. The guy's music videos that had been awarded, best music video numerous times.. is now, up in the clouds, in heaven.

I still can't believe, he's dead. Really~

And I believe he did not do all the bad things, such as molesting those lil boys he had over at his Neverland, all those years ago. Parents of these kids probably wana get money out of him.

People making comments about him having too much plastic surgery, on his face. I guess, that is his own problem if he wants surgery, he just doesnt like the way he looks. Who cares? It's his money after all.. Not like he borrowed money to get all this done.

And I heard months ago, he was suppose to be on some kinda world tour. Before he even accomplish that, he's dead already.

Honestly, when was the last time we heard from M.J making everyone stage go crazy, crying and even fainting while watching him sing/ dance? A couple of years back..

It's sad how god take all the good and down-to-earth people away but leave all the douchebags around here, living happily and breathing.

Probably haters once liked M.J too, just that they read too much of these news talking bad about M.J and soon developed a hatred towards him too. :/ It's crazy!

I'm not here to tell you how much I love him or anything. Judging from the amount of die hard fans he have, out there. Haters are nothing.. (:

Ratio of fans to haters is probably, 10:1. Hah!
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Michael Jackson will not be forgotten even after his dead, trust me. Even 20-30 years down the road.

He will be remembered by many. Many successful artiste and singers out there were inspired by M.J. The man who inspire new young talents to be as successful as him.

Example: Usher/ Chris Brown/ Rain & MANY MANY MORE.
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I wonder what his family members have to say. Like, Janet Jackson.
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Here, I end my post.
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Rest In Peace, Michael Jackson.

Watch it! Funny as hell.

Omg, I love this show so much. :D

I higly reccomend to those who have not watch it before, spent 2 hours(or 3? :X) watching episodes and episodes of it! (: Hell funny, laughed till I teared.

This is one video you wanna watch to get through a boring night.. Heh.

Ok, I'm going to bed now. Night

Going to the doctor's tomorrow.. Been the 3rd time, this year.

Sighhhhhh~ :/

Blogging about what had happened this morning was on my mind like the whole of today. Just had to do an update about it..

Ok, it's all about this crazy chinese lady prank calling my place. Calling me names and insulting my parents too.

I don't even know her. I don't remember knowing any chinese lady recently. She isn't a local, her mandarin accent was pretty obvious that she isn't...

And the number she used to call up my place isnt any local number either. On my phone i.d caller, the displayed number was, 'O'

O = Overseas.

So yeah, it's an overseas call.

I got so mad about it and Ive never come across any prank callers in my life so persistent, annoying, rude and fucked. Yes, fucked.. Omfg, you have no idea how many times she called even after we yelled swear words at her. We, as in, my brother & me.

I should have just fake I speak no madarin and spoke english through out, so she would stop harrassing me. Gave me a bad morning/ day.. Cos of this bitch, I was late for work. Knn..

If she's gonna call again tomorrow, I will just start speaking english through out and fake I speak no mandarin.

All I can say about all these prank callers call to tell u that u had won a million dollars.. In other words, scam are just a bunch of desperate/ poor/ pitiful/ rude bitches/ jerks who have nothing better to do but to call and cheat for money..

Come on, you want money do it the hard way..

Go stand on the streets and get desperate lonely men to pay you for sex. Aint that bad eh? You get pleasure and moolahs. That's for the bitches.

For the jerks, go stand on the street too, ask lonely gay men to screw you in the ass. Pleasure and moolahs. (:

What makes me mad is that, they don't get what they want from calling you(MONEY.) They start to be rude and talk shit.. I can't fight em cos they speak WAY BETTER mandarin than I do.

Andddddd, to our dear fellow Singaporeans, don't be a dumbass to start believing what you hear in future saying you won money in whatever contest/ lucky draw youve never came across or heard of.

If you do believe, you're just another fool letting these douchebags taking all your hard-earn money away.

At the end of the day, all you can do is cry your eyeballs out, your money had grew wings on it's own flying into these douchebags' pockets and there, they are sniggering at how stupid you are while they continue counting the amount of money they had gotten from you, fools. Tsk...

After which they wld all think we, SIngaporeans are a bunch of stupid fools who are greedy and such cheapskate to believe in all these free money and good deals. :/

I know, I don't wanna be labelled as a fool just cos of many of my fellow country people who got cheated, LIKE THAT.

I am pretty smart, don't call me a fool! :b

You said, I could have just ignore this lady's phone call. Well, I did.. she just kept calling. And everytime I answer.. She acts all sweet and innocent, referring to her voice. What she think she's doing? Seducing me???

Ey, I'm not turned on by your high-pitched annoying cheena voice, ok? Fuckkkkkk, gross.

Thinking about it, makes me mad..

Will tell y'all what this bitch had told me and how she insulted my parents. What the fuck, my parents ARE innocent. if you're unhappy deal it with MOI. Not my parents ok..

*POINTS MIDDLE FINGER.*

this marks the 200th entry on my blog.
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i have been blogging on a daily basis for like the past week. as for today, it's the 2nd entry for 1 day. it's crazy. i'm sure too free/ bored to do so.

tomorrow onwards, i wont be upating that regularly, i'm back to work.. time flies before u even know it. waiting for my day off to come is long and agonizing but to go through day off is fast as hell!

i am so bored! i should be off watching lesbian porn or something. much better than staring at the monitor or stoning infront of the computer doing nothing.

OR MAYBE I SHOULD JUST....

go to bed!

yeahhhh, that's the way. uh huh uh huh, i like it... -_-

call me a sleeper already. is there such a word, sleeper? lol. i think there is..

who cares?!
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P.S: I NEED SOMEONE TO MAKE ME LAUGH AND TALK CRAZY. no, am not referring to u, Suf "crazy bud". SOMEONE!

wa, i just sound like some kinda desperado. fuckkkkkkkk..

Been infront of the laptop for 4 hours?

Dang, my legs are aching. Can't find the 'perfect' position to rest my legs and be infront of the laptop in peace. My current sitting position looks really awkward.. Look like a frog somehow..

Lol.

That isnt the point why I'm here, blogging.
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My eyes are dying, I've been here for the past 4 hours.. Doing up my Mom's menu. Finally, I've finished typing and printing every single thing she had asked me to. Now, I can be left alone in peace.. Phewww~

My dad's leaving for Thailand, tonight. He would only be back on either Monday/ Tuesday morning..

So I'm done with the menu, I can be leaving the laptop and do something else right? Not really, I gotta be working on recipes for work. Promised Uncle Kenny, I wld pass it to him when I return back to work, tomorrow.

Sucks to be still doing work related stuff when I'm having my day off. -_-

I can do that in the comfort of my own home if I had Microsoft Word but I don't, that's why I'm here at my Grandma's, making use of my Aunt's laptop whose at Malaysia, right now.
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Ok, I better get going. If I wanna finish typing all the recipe and have them printed out by 8pm..

Yes, I'm pushing myself to finish my work by 8pm, which is in an hour's time.. Despite, I can easily drift away, watching Youtube videos. Lol.. Bla~

Update:

What the hell! Told myself to finish by 8pm. It's 9:35pm right now! No, I did not go to Youtube! I was on Microsoft Word for the whole 2 and half hours.

Dang! It's taking longer than I thought! Zz.

And I have not finished yet. This recipe shit is killing me..

Urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..

At times, my friends would randomly ask/ tell me....

"Caron, why don't you go get yourself a dress?? Doll up, you would look awesome. SO, YES! GET A FREAKIN' DRESS ALREADY!"

Yes yes yes, now I'm gonna show you pictures of myself in a dress.. And tell me how "HOT" I look...

HAPPY?!!!?
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What, what????

I DID show you pictures of myself in a dress, didn't I? I did not lie... I promise I would show you and I did. (:

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA.
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I know alot are rolling their eyeballs and so wanna kill me right now. :b

Can't help it.. Found these pictures in my grandma's house. Had to show y'all..

The other time I saw it and I burst out laughing while pointing at the picture. For real!

I mean, who bought those funny looking dresses for me? The blue halter one, especially... I think, my mom. -_- Omfg.

Sometimes, I find mothers never fail to make you look silly in clothes they think looks cute.. When you're younger.

But to think about it, if they don't do that. There wont be anything to laugh about 20 years later, when you dig out your old photos to look at it. Ahhhh~ Memories...

Oh yeah, above pictures were taken when I was 3-4 years old? I forgot.

I even saw pictures of myself much younger, taken right after I got back from New Zealand, I've decided not to upload it here.

Looks horrible, my cheeks were red and my eyes looked so sepet! Oh my...

Like a Japanese boy.. new-born, I mean.

Realized my toddler pictures looked WAY better(cuter)... Ha ha ha ha.
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I'm supposed to be here, helping my Mom to do up her menu.. I'm still here, typing away. -_-

I'm looking for meaningful/ inspirational/ good quotes by famous people. :D For something..... Heh.

Ok, better get started with the menu.. She needs it by tonight! Will try to multi-task or something... Urgh!

Ciao.

You have to watch it! Mad Funny!

Dude got for stealing laptop during last week's IT show.

Don't kow if you guys read about this article, I don't know about this till moments ago. Was blog hopping and happen to see this link on this random person's blog entry. Clicked on the link and read the article.

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?id=74397

Click on above link to read the whole article.
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I'm not sure to laugh at this theif's act or to pity for being tied up like that and got his picture taken of to show it to many others whose reading the article right at this very moment or later on, whatever.

The security guard whose in the picture with the theif looked like he was very proud for catching him. Like a fisherman whose out in the sea for 3 months, came back with a 50 feet long, 800 pounds shark.

Ok. 'am exaggerating with the size of the shark, but you roughly get my idea. Do you? ..Nevermind.

I know alot of you would say stuff like "Yeah that dude deserve to be shamed by public for committing such an act."

Somehow, I pity this guy. I mean, yeah, he did wrong for stealing a laptop. But I dont think he deserve anything like that.

By tying him up, making him sit at the IT show area.. People throwing paper balls and jeering at him.

If I am the theif..

I wont even know what to do, prolly tryna find a hole whole and hide in there for the rest of my life or bury my head somewhere like an ostrich.

Back to the proud security guard, according to the article.. He is not one of the staff of Suntec City. The security guard is hired by the event organiser, itself. Bla~

If so, I guess, just tie that that dude up, bring him to the office or anywhere, call the cops and let the cops deal with it. Why do that?

Come on, if it's your son/ daughter who had committed such a crime, would you want something like that to happen to them?

Getting the public to jeer at him/ her. Paper balls thrown at him/ her. I don't think so.

Thou you would answer me right now with something like "Yeah, I wld let the public humiliate him/ her. If he/ she did commit a crime like this.."

That's what you say initially, wait till you see a picture like this on a site/ newspaper. You wld think twice or thrice...

Even with his/ her face, blurred.
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So what I've said in this whole entry are MY thoughts, MY opinions.

If you think what I had said isnt right, those are YOUR thoughts, YOUR opinions. Everyone's given a right to their own thoughts and opinions. There isnt a right or wrong opinion here..

Just to let y'all know.

Gotten flu....

And it's irritating me to the extreme! ):

If there is sucha bug called the Flu bug which flies/ goes/ jumps around casting flu spells on random people. I bet it's mad laughing at me right now. Zzz..

What's irritating me is that, I wld just start having some kinda sneezing fit whereby I need to focus in whatever I'm doing. Not focusing on another sneeze which is YET to come! Bla..

Now all I do is stick around and *sniff sniff* :/ and I can sense the headache coming. Probably from the fever I had last month. I hate it alot..

I'm yawning away, gonna go to bed soon and it's only 11:46pm. My body starts to break down after 11pm nowadays...

Sweeeeeeeeeeet!

Ciao

Weather's warm and sickening.

Well, good to head out for a game of volleyball at the beach and get roasted by Mr Sunny Sun.. Definitely not good for hanging out in the house right here, blogging. -_-

Last entry was a total piece of crap. Running out of ideas to blog!

13 more days to payday. I'm dead broke already..

Time flies, it's the middle of the month already. Yet again, it's the middle of the year too..

Sunday, today! Heading out for Sunday brunch? Good for you.

Heading out for church service?(or what you Christians and Catholics do on Sundays in church.) Good for you too.

I'm heading to work. Not good for me.

It's Monday tomorrow! Yet another week. Looking forward to Wednesday. A break for me till Saturday. :b But I'm gonna stay put at home. I'm dead broke...

What's so enjoyable to head out without any penny left in your purse/ wallet/ bank account?? Not fun at all.

Gonna continue to sleep early every night. I did that and I'm happy.. Looks like work load takes up all my energy, leaving me so dead every night when I get home.

Which is a good thing too, whereby my mind is put to smething else and not letting my thoughts go wild like zebras in African wildlife or something.

Time for shower and head to work..
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P.S: I'm still trying to erase you off my mind, COMPLETELY. What the fuck... Where's the backspace button like the one you see on keyboards?! Can someone install one of that in my brain? Please.. I guess, the 'Backspace' key is in great demand.

So, Regan Tan was mindlessly doing his popping moves infront of me, again.

I said again because.. He's always seen dancing at the most unusual time of the day..

& all he do is popping and more popping, maybe a few locking moves added in but they all look the same to me. LOL.

& I am so jealous of that boy right now.

Not cos he's able to pop & lock, he's pretty much still a noob compared to what u see on Youtube. HAH! :b

I'm jealous of that boy cos he got abs! Dang..

Not six-pac sorta abs. If so, I wonder what he's been doing, all that pop & lock, he's been doing, mindlessly? Hah..

Yes, not six-pac sorta abs. But defined.. & I am super jealous of that. Oh, did I add that even my other brother has defined abs as well?

I'm jealous, double the amount this time!

!!!

He's barely 14 yet, well in a month's time...
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Oh yeah, if you think I'm showing off what my brothers' got, you're so wrong. Why would I show off? It's on my brothers anyway, not like it's on me. My point for saying this, is that.. I'm just hell jealous of them, that's all. :/

Well if you still insist that I'm showing off my brothers..

I wld, if they are as famous as Zac Efron or the Jonas Brothers.(These are the guys I can think of now. So Disney Channel, I know!)

...By then, I get all kinds girls wanting to make friends with me, even gay boys(who are in love with Zac/ Jonas Brothers) too. Cos they wanna know my brothers. Grr!

HAHAHHAHAHA!
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Now, I'm beginning to wonder.. If my parents gave them abs as well as looks.

It sucks so much, why did my parents invest so much on them in looks department and now, body-built department too!

& Yes. Miserable enough, I was left with nothing. Even thou, I'm their 1st kid. Urgh! God's playing tricks on me..

So what did my parents gave me??

Nope, not looks.

Nor a smokin hot bod that girls wld kill to have, guys yearn to get a piece of.

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Till now, I don't know what I inherited from my parents' genes. LOL.. maybe, brains, creativity. I don't know. But that would only be seen after people know you on the outside.

Sounds damn superficial, I know! People these days are alllllllll like that..

Even the ones who LOUDLY claims they aren't. Hah! Think I buy your shit??

Please don't give me shit like that. I wld let the car run over my body 50 more times when u say u're not. A tad bit counts too..

Bla bla bla, a blog entry can lead to something like that...

What the hell, really.
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Ok, something to laugh about, I'm listening to Mandarin POP songs! Swaying my head from side to side even while typing now. Trying to sing a few lines of it also.

FUNNY OR WHAT!? Zz.

Now I feel like downloading the song. It's addictive.. I think I can go K-BOX already.

HAHAHAHA?
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Told myself to go to bed at 12. It's 1 hour and 18 minutes later and I am still here.
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Caron, screw yourself.. -_-

Click 'PLAY' to listen.

Till now, when I can't fall asleep. I need such music to get me to sleep. From lullaby to Kenny G's...

I know! Brahms lullaby sounds a little too over.. But still, it still gets me to sleep at the end of the day. ):

Don't judge me! Just cos I listen to Brahms Lullaby meant for babies. Haaaa..

Ok, night world.

Slept at 7:30am yesterday, woke up 2 hours later.. Decided to be a good kid for once,(Like I'm always bad. Ha ha?) went out for breakfast with Mom & Dad.

It's funny how your parents treat you differently when you're out with them, alone. I don't know for you guys but I know my parents treat me differently when I'm out with them, alone. Yes, without my brothers.

The tone they used to talk to me sounds all friend-like,(with a bit of we-are-still-your-parents in it) completely different when I'm back home.

I can say whatever I want and they would just laugh at my stupidity, little comments on things and views. Like how I used to act all clown infront of them when I was 3 years old.

Ha ha.. much?

Oh I still clown infront of them every nw and then, even thou I'm turning 20 in 6 months & many days more. Heehee.
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So I got home, cooked lunch for my brothers. My specialty fried bee-hoon, hmmmm. After not cooking that for months, I'm glad it still taste the same like before. I always score high points for this! Am very proud of myself, THANK YOU. HEH.

Bummed, read books and watched tv. Had a random chit-chat session with my Dad.. Lazed around, got tired and went to sleep at 5pm.

Initially, it was a short nap. But who knows, I checked the time when I woke up.. It was already 4:15am. ZZZ's..

Almost 12 hours of sleeping time! Been long since I slept for 12 solid hours, straiiiiightttt.. What a surprise! *Sarcasm*

So Ive been on here since 4:30am. Working at 12noon later on.. :/

New week tomorrow! New things ahead for me, I hope.

And here we are, going into the 2nd week of June already. Worst of all, I'm going bankrupt, sooon.
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Few days ago, I was reading my past blog entries..(refer to archives at the side on the right.) out of boredom.

As I was reading the late April 09 & early May'09 entries. I felt down right stupid.

I realized thatttttt......

I am a foool!

WOOOH, if I had split personality or I had the ability to transform into another person with a snap of my fingers, I would laugh at myself.. Really.

Not to be blinded so easily. That I'm gonna add into my list of 2010 new year resolution/s.

Since I never had any sort of new year's resolutions at all, when asked or having them and not working towards it.

ANDDDDDDDDD, I know.. I'm doing this 6 months in advance, but I guess in this 6 months..

BUT.. You can start looking at all the stupid mistakes you've made(from all the 5 months ago) or you're gonna make for the next 6 months,(dont tell me you wont make mistakes cos no one's perfect...)

Then, adding them into your advance new year's resolution list not to commit any of those.. AGAIN.

Nothing wrong doing anything in advance, heh.

So I've made one! I will start making resolutions from now on till the new year comes. LOL..
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AND oh, I'm gonna start working really hard and save alot more too, I'm giving myself another 18 months to do so, save as much as I can.

Other than saving and working my ass off, I'm doing lotsa research too. Try to find out as much as possible and that research wld be done with these 18 months too.

After that, sayonara here and HELLO! to new place and life. I wld still LOVEEEEEEE here alot, don't worry.

After all I live here all 18 years of my life. (:
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Ciao! And working towards my goal(FOR NOW)... Hmmmmm.

Just downloaded a bunch of songs. Awesome!

Here are the few tracks I've downloaded, go listen to it on Youtube. (:

Black Eyed Peas - Imma Be
DJ Deckstream ft Lupe Fiasco - Can You Let Me Know
Jeremiah - Birthday Sex
Lady Gaga - The Fame
Lady Gaga ft Flo Rida - Starstruck
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Listen and rate them! Heehee.

I love the track by Black Eyed Peas. It's off their new album, woo-hoo! Boom Boom Pow is another good song by them.
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Night sky, tonight was just as beautiful as last night's. I wanna see more stars! (:

Singapore's too bright, even at night! Every 5M u spot a lamp post, good thing is that you feel safe even walking on the streets at 3am.

Bad thing about seeing a lamp post every 5M along the side walk? The stars had somehow disappared/ faded into the night sky.. Making it hard for us to see them. ):

I have to crane my neck like crazy in bro's room when I wanna see stars, cos view is limited due to the window grills in the room and like I said, stars seem to diappear/ fade into the night sky.. -_-

Places where you can see countless of stars are at the beach, camping sites(I've seen 3 stars in a row!), Pulau Tekong(according to Qal) Pulau Ubin, I suppose. Places without much lighting around.. Heh.

And whenever I see the moon all round, bright and perfect, I feel a sense of satisfaction, sounds weird I know but yeah I wld be smiling away. I dont know why.. Lol.
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OH YEAH,

Have I told you guys, I've seen the moon up close before? It was awesome! The moon had craters on it's surface which reminds me of cheese having holes around it.

Like the cheese you see in the Tom & Jerry cartoons. :D

View of the moon upclose with the help of a, TELESCOPE!

I was at this camp, 2 years ago and one of the instructors brought the telescope to camp and asked if anyone wants to see the moon of cos I was one of the many who wants to catch a glimpse of how the moon looks like, upclose. (:
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Now I can only decieve myself by sticking glow in the dark plastic stars all over the big wall in my room. I plan to get like 2-3 more packs of these and stick them all over the ceiling after my room is painted. (:

I feel like a 5-yr old now. Urgh!
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15 more minutes to 6:30am, WOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!

Night.

30 minutes to 4am, yet again I'm sleeping late. This week's been tiring, hell tiring. Compared to the previous days, weeks and months.

Clocked in extra hours this week, staff shortage....

You think I clocked in more hours this week is a good thing cos I will be paid overtime or somethin' but no, all I get is split shift allowance, that's all.

But if I can choose, I choose sleeping hours extended or something. LOL.

Earning money is one issue. Not being able to get back all the beauty sleep hours you've lost? No matter how much u earn, it's still gone into the drain.

& I dont think all the more money Ive gotten will make me not look like a Panda, almost.

Can't wait for Vicky to come back from India after 3 long weeks to attend his sister's wedding ceremony.. By then, I'm able to clear my outstanding PH.. 3 days, u think?

Even if so, I don't know what to do with that 3 days, either. BAH!

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Soooooo, I'm going to bed right after this. Can't take it anymore..

Am afraid I might get rashes or something. I don't know how but yeah, am afraid. Zzz, first my fingers, now afraid of getting rashes.

How does one suffer from rashes? Poor Hygeine??

I dont think so, I spend 30 minutes in the shower every morning. :X I just take my own sweet time to clean myself up.. HA HA HA.

I take my own sweet time to wash my hair, lather myself with bath gel and stuff. Grrrr!

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Oh, I love bananas. Random..

But bananas are good! I dont see what's wrong with eating bananas. They are good, nice, cheap and most importantly, it keeps you full..

My colleagues ask me why I eat bananas so frequently.. I don't think you need a reason to eat bananas or fruits. Just grab an apple if you feel like it, that's what I do always..

Bananas just one tiny part of the list of my favourite fruits. :D Funny thing, I'm not a vegetable lover, oh well~

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Ok, ciao!

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I walked and walked, wanting to know how the sky looks like tonight. So I did, looked up to find the bright moon and the clouds around it. The sky looked so beautiful tonight..

How I long I was at the beach, listening to waves with the gentle breeze across my face. While I look up to see how the sky wld look like.. Oh, the stars filled dark sky, what's not to like?

With someone you love sitting right next to you and a hug? Picture perfecto.

my fingers look mad disgusting now. it's all cracked, dry and blisters forming around it. the itch is giving me hell, nevermind about the stinging feeling of it.

i know! you're like going "ewwwwwwwwwwww!!" right now.

i'mma cook and i handle food.

how can i let people know, all that is happening to my fingers which are attached to my hands. the body part which is used for handling food. I KNOW, I KNOW..

shut up with all that, 1stly i wear gloves when I handle food. so for that part is covered. don't ask me how the hell did it happened. i have no idea too and obviously, i dont want it.

sometimes when it hurts so bad, i have the urge to cut my fingers off. therefore it wont hurt or itch anymore. but to think of it, that thought of mine is hell stupid. -_-

and i would never proceed to carry on with that pointless thought of mine which popped up out of nowhere. pretty radom, if you ask me.
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i gotta wake up real early tomorrow, work at 10am to help prep staff meal. naw, no soup. zz.. after which i'm gonna go to Raffles Medical clinic to consult a doctor about the condition of my fingers.

sucks to be waking up early in the morning, but im looking forward cos my shift ends at 6pm! heehee..

back to having to making a trip to Raffles Medical clinic tomorrow...

see if there's any cream or oral medication to be given to help cure this shit that's happening and driving me nuts, almost.

this is one shit, i have to suffer if i am gonna make this my career and get my ass to stay put. not plus points, negative ones! grr.
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ok, my eyeballs are gonna pop out anytime soon. im sleeping, ciao~

Yes, green with envy.

I envy those who are still sleeping right now, those who only to need to wake up after 12noon or any time they want.

I envy those who are having their school holidays now.

I envy those who doesnt need to work their asses off with money STILL rolling into their account.
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Random but true. :/

The weather these days' effing sickening!

i don't understand why youre always poking your nose in whatever i do. i just dont get it.. i do whatever i want, as long as it isnt wrong legally, whatsoever. i get asked what to do in the day at work by people above me.

now that i'm back home, i get grilled by you. telling me what i should do and what should i NOT do. i'm tired of this.. i cant do what i want with peace. u said u want peace in the house, i listened and obeyed. but i need my own space. is it too much to ask for?

it's my health, it's my life. if i screw it up. ive got myself to blame.. i wont come haunting u that u made my health or life in bad shape. dont worry, u dont have to take the blame. neither mom's gonna take teh blame. i will answer for my own life and health. if i wanna do it this way, LET ME BE, please.

if i die of exhaustion, just let me be.
if i die of stress, let me be.
if i die of pressuring my ownself to be better, let me be.

wouldnt it be better that,
u dont have another person to stay angry with, anymore?

wouldnt it be better that,
you dont have to give me money when i ask u for it, again?