hey guys,

im so sorry about the lack of updates. ive been busy with work..
these days,
i have to actually plan the other things(besides work.) i intend to do now with a work schedule like this. how pathetic!

every night i get home, all i wanna do is chill, catch up with my friends online(only those who are bothered to talk to me.)
can all of you believe thats my source of communication with friends right now? apart from text messaging and calling of cos. although im not into talking on the phone, sort of person. heh..

besides that, watching videos on youtube, do some reading and finally, get eye-shut. which is VERY important. but im still missing out on that. i can already see those dark circles forming under my eyes. urgh! the last thing i want is, dark circles and friggin eye bags..

i wonder why god create those! its like useless anyway, having those wont make u any where attractive.. unless uve gt dark circles/ eye bags fetish or something. lol..

ok, so not gonna make myself sound so pathetic..

besides all that busy schedule going on, work's pretty fine. i learn new things everyday and with a bunch of awesome work mates.(only a couple of bad ass fucked up ones. who give a damn about that couple of hypocrites whose out to give u a living hell huh?) life's okay.. (:

although i get teased sometimes cos im the youngest in there. yahoooo! i still get some perks the older ones dont. HAH!
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so what about school? am i going back or not? i wish i cld go back to school right away! i miss the days in uniforms. i miss driving lecturers up the wall..(hahaha.) i miss school! but i cant get the right course nor school. damn! i kinda give up on registering for a new course in ITE already.

will probably go back to studying in 2 years or so, after i have settled down on my current job. do a diploma in culinary or something, since i am in this field.

getting sick of people constantly reminding me about going back to school, questioning me when im getting back to school.. doubting me, cos i started working earlier than other 19 yr olds who are still in school, studying.. that im lazy/ didnt do well/ cant be bothered to continue studying.

if ive gt no problems financially, i wld be going to school and enjoying my time in there. not working like a cow and getting dry skin and sores on my hands from the rubber gloves i have to wear every day while handling food.

i cld have asked my parents to support me financially so that i can go to school peacefully, but i choose not to. my parents got enough bills to take care of and my brothers education.. and taking up a diploma isnt as cheap as u think. if u are talking about a private diploma.(i am not eligible for any polytechnics.)

im trying hard to save as much as i can. so quit harping that i am lazy and giving up studies at a young age, i am telling you i am not. just so you know, im always telling people around me, how much i missed school, how much i yearn to go back..
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these days, i have no idea what is wrong with my insane father.. he wld just give me a "good" scolding for no apparent reason and its driving me nuts. like whatever i say is like fireballs to his face.

there he is, making empty promises and talking so much about me not having any responsibility in the things i do.

like my shift ends at 6pm on that particular day, i get home late, i get screwed for not getting home after work/ on time. oh now, even my after work hours, i cant walk around the mall and window shop? what is this??

i cant even surf the net in peace even the next day is my day off.

i cant even read my friend's blog.. he wld say ridiculous stuff like "why are u invading people's privacy and reading people's journal?! its rude."

oh hell, then WHY IS IT FUCKING CALLED AN ONLINE JOURNAL!?

if my friend or anyone doesnt set his/ her online journal to a private password-protected site that means im free to read. i do not need any permission to read it cos its for public.

for public, it means anyone from the age of 3-90 are able to read, even if ure a government official, whatsoever.

annoying or what!?

oh another thing, i cant view people's pictures on facebook or friendster. he wld say stuff like,

"going online doesnt mean u start looking at people's pictures. you know them huh? if u dont. why are u looking at their pictures?"

which made me thinking:

oh hell, U DONT KNOW ANYONE IN THE VIDEOS ON YOUTUBE DEN WHY ARE U WATHCING THEM HUH? GOING ONLINE DOESNT PERMIT YOU TO START WATHCING VIDEOS ON YOUTUBE, Y'KNOW?!

care and concern my ass. just say that u interfere a little too much. i cant even listen to my mp3 at home.. he says its damaging my ears.

fine! from now on, DONT lemme see ya, answering phone calls, watching tv with the volume turned on, any form of sound is damaging to the ears. so yes, dont do any of that!

trust me, my father is just looking for ways to get me. give me a good lashing and he'll be satisfied.

there are times, i cant even stand living under the same roof with him, even living in the same country.

at times, i wanna get my ass out of singapore. i dont wanna see him.. since he always say that i always mention how awesome these countries are.. always thinking that ive got thoughts that overseas is better.

NOW I WILL FUCKING PROVE YOU THAT LIVING IN SINGAPORE WITH U AROUND IS MIND TORTURING, I CANT STAND YOUR NONSENSE..

not that im disrespectful towards my folks or anything like that..(one thing i hate about young people is that being disrespectful towards the elderly, so yes. i wont do sucha thing.)

but it really is driving me crazy, why dont u just mind ur own busines and i mind my own? im 19 and im not doing anything illegal, like going around burning houses or taking drugs.

WHY, why.. do u needa interfere in the things i do? im just a normal adult, going to work everyday and coming home when my shift ends. staying at home and being a couch potato, watching videos on youtube while im online and listening to music..

which part of my lifestyle angers u huh? like seriously!
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so now, at times after work(if my shift on that day ends early.) i wld hang out at my neighbourhood's park, read a book or just taking a walk.. looking at how fast, time can pass. listening to whatever is playing on my mp3..(thou i highly recommend, slow songs)

till i think time is just right to get home, den i wld slowly make my way home and do whatever i needa do and dive into bed.
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end of tonight's entry. its longer than i thought. enjoy reading, im gone. ciao! (: