did not do a proper update for the past week. ):

sorry about it AND alot had happened this week. will do a proper update later on, for now i'll just do a short one and get going, i need to go to bed already. work at 10am..

stayed over at my grandma's for almost a week already.

finally broke down after letting all out while my grandma sat beside me to listen. told her how stressful it was to be sticking around at home. my dad(which is her son) making things difficult for me.. even thou i did nothing.

it suck so much.. maybe i stress myself out too much.

work, home. urgh!

can someone tell me how not to care about all that shit thats happening? SERIOUSLY..

I NEED A BREAK.

random, but..

CAN SOMEONE DONATE ME SGD6000?!

lol, nothing to do with life & death. just can someone donate me that amount??

i know this will never happen, but im just doing so here.

-_- LOL

zzzzzzzzzzz.

i am so sleepy and yet im still here, infront of the computer, typing away.. -_-

even able to doze off whiel waiting for the page to load. yeah, im that dead tired now.

here just to let you guys know, how much i need sleep now. :/ lol.

ok, im off chasing rainbows in dreamland now.

night world and chocolate dreams! :D

my parents and brother are gossiping about our neighbours and people they know.


& i just heard one of the units at our block in debt or something, angered the loansharks.. decided to vandalize the corridor, with paint.

writing the usual "o $ p $. #xx-xxx" on the walls not only the storey u stay. but on every storey of the block.

!!!!!!!

what the heck is wrong with these loan sharks?! u people are so god damn free to write things like that on the walls, so free to write all over the whole block like all of the residents of this block had owe you, loan sharks, money.. not forgetting the lift as well.

after which, u decide to buy cans of paint to pour all over peopl's corridor and main doors. -_- locking their doors with chains and huge ass ped-locks. finally, filling the keyholes of locks with super glue.

seriously instead of wasting your time writing all the "o $ p $" messages and pouring paint all over the place.. u might wanna think of new ways to get ur money back??

not only ure not getting ur money back, ure causing nuisance to the public and innocent families are suffering cos the person is not able to pay up the debt he/ she, owe you.
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i read the newpaper the other day.. this article was saying, this unit of this particular block owe the loansharks money and was unable to pay up. refuse to answer the door when the loansharks came knocking.

so the loansharks resort to go to the neighbour's(person who owe loansharks, money.) place to "help" them get the money back, by pouring paint at the neighbour's house and writing teh neighbour's unit no all over walls.

the victim complaint to newpaper that shes innocent and the other neighbours gave her family and her dirty looks like they were the ones who were in debt and we the loansharks money.

she called up the loansharks and say they know nothing, the loansharks just replied her "we cant get the money back from them, we'll just use you to help us get the money back."

WHAT THE HECK??!?

so u cant get the money back from the person who had owe you..

you decide to look for their neighbours?? what can the neighbours do to get back the money? give a death threat or something?

if loansharks cant get the money back, i dont see how the neighbours can "help" to get the money back..

u dont get it too right? so do i.
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screw you, losers.

hey guys,

im so sorry about the lack of updates. ive been busy with work..
these days,
i have to actually plan the other things(besides work.) i intend to do now with a work schedule like this. how pathetic!

every night i get home, all i wanna do is chill, catch up with my friends online(only those who are bothered to talk to me.)
can all of you believe thats my source of communication with friends right now? apart from text messaging and calling of cos. although im not into talking on the phone, sort of person. heh..

besides that, watching videos on youtube, do some reading and finally, get eye-shut. which is VERY important. but im still missing out on that. i can already see those dark circles forming under my eyes. urgh! the last thing i want is, dark circles and friggin eye bags..

i wonder why god create those! its like useless anyway, having those wont make u any where attractive.. unless uve gt dark circles/ eye bags fetish or something. lol..

ok, so not gonna make myself sound so pathetic..

besides all that busy schedule going on, work's pretty fine. i learn new things everyday and with a bunch of awesome work mates.(only a couple of bad ass fucked up ones. who give a damn about that couple of hypocrites whose out to give u a living hell huh?) life's okay.. (:

although i get teased sometimes cos im the youngest in there. yahoooo! i still get some perks the older ones dont. HAH!
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so what about school? am i going back or not? i wish i cld go back to school right away! i miss the days in uniforms. i miss driving lecturers up the wall..(hahaha.) i miss school! but i cant get the right course nor school. damn! i kinda give up on registering for a new course in ITE already.

will probably go back to studying in 2 years or so, after i have settled down on my current job. do a diploma in culinary or something, since i am in this field.

getting sick of people constantly reminding me about going back to school, questioning me when im getting back to school.. doubting me, cos i started working earlier than other 19 yr olds who are still in school, studying.. that im lazy/ didnt do well/ cant be bothered to continue studying.

if ive gt no problems financially, i wld be going to school and enjoying my time in there. not working like a cow and getting dry skin and sores on my hands from the rubber gloves i have to wear every day while handling food.

i cld have asked my parents to support me financially so that i can go to school peacefully, but i choose not to. my parents got enough bills to take care of and my brothers education.. and taking up a diploma isnt as cheap as u think. if u are talking about a private diploma.(i am not eligible for any polytechnics.)

im trying hard to save as much as i can. so quit harping that i am lazy and giving up studies at a young age, i am telling you i am not. just so you know, im always telling people around me, how much i missed school, how much i yearn to go back..
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these days, i have no idea what is wrong with my insane father.. he wld just give me a "good" scolding for no apparent reason and its driving me nuts. like whatever i say is like fireballs to his face.

there he is, making empty promises and talking so much about me not having any responsibility in the things i do.

like my shift ends at 6pm on that particular day, i get home late, i get screwed for not getting home after work/ on time. oh now, even my after work hours, i cant walk around the mall and window shop? what is this??

i cant even surf the net in peace even the next day is my day off.

i cant even read my friend's blog.. he wld say ridiculous stuff like "why are u invading people's privacy and reading people's journal?! its rude."

oh hell, then WHY IS IT FUCKING CALLED AN ONLINE JOURNAL!?

if my friend or anyone doesnt set his/ her online journal to a private password-protected site that means im free to read. i do not need any permission to read it cos its for public.

for public, it means anyone from the age of 3-90 are able to read, even if ure a government official, whatsoever.

annoying or what!?

oh another thing, i cant view people's pictures on facebook or friendster. he wld say stuff like,

"going online doesnt mean u start looking at people's pictures. you know them huh? if u dont. why are u looking at their pictures?"

which made me thinking:

oh hell, U DONT KNOW ANYONE IN THE VIDEOS ON YOUTUBE DEN WHY ARE U WATHCING THEM HUH? GOING ONLINE DOESNT PERMIT YOU TO START WATHCING VIDEOS ON YOUTUBE, Y'KNOW?!

care and concern my ass. just say that u interfere a little too much. i cant even listen to my mp3 at home.. he says its damaging my ears.

fine! from now on, DONT lemme see ya, answering phone calls, watching tv with the volume turned on, any form of sound is damaging to the ears. so yes, dont do any of that!

trust me, my father is just looking for ways to get me. give me a good lashing and he'll be satisfied.

there are times, i cant even stand living under the same roof with him, even living in the same country.

at times, i wanna get my ass out of singapore. i dont wanna see him.. since he always say that i always mention how awesome these countries are.. always thinking that ive got thoughts that overseas is better.

NOW I WILL FUCKING PROVE YOU THAT LIVING IN SINGAPORE WITH U AROUND IS MIND TORTURING, I CANT STAND YOUR NONSENSE..

not that im disrespectful towards my folks or anything like that..(one thing i hate about young people is that being disrespectful towards the elderly, so yes. i wont do sucha thing.)

but it really is driving me crazy, why dont u just mind ur own busines and i mind my own? im 19 and im not doing anything illegal, like going around burning houses or taking drugs.

WHY, why.. do u needa interfere in the things i do? im just a normal adult, going to work everyday and coming home when my shift ends. staying at home and being a couch potato, watching videos on youtube while im online and listening to music..

which part of my lifestyle angers u huh? like seriously!
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so now, at times after work(if my shift on that day ends early.) i wld hang out at my neighbourhood's park, read a book or just taking a walk.. looking at how fast, time can pass. listening to whatever is playing on my mp3..(thou i highly recommend, slow songs)

till i think time is just right to get home, den i wld slowly make my way home and do whatever i needa do and dive into bed.
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end of tonight's entry. its longer than i thought. enjoy reading, im gone. ciao! (:

the movie posters!


click to watch trailer.
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ok, i'm so gonna catch this movie. not that i'm a sucker for horror/ gore movies.

but seriously, after watching the trailer and suf texted me earlier telling me she had already watch the movie.(dang!)

not forgetting uncle kenny telling me on monday morning while having breakfast that he caught the movie with alex last sunday night after work.

last but not least, u watched the trailer.. u saw the poster. IT'S FREAKING 3D! which makes the highlight of this movie, i guess. im so excited!

(which made me sound like a psycho right now. that all the blood spraying around, killing and screaming in pain was nothing but music to my ears.)

so after suf texted, telling me she had already watch the movie.. i was thinking who am i gonna drag to the cinema with me to watch this horror movie? lol. then she replied:

"yup wanna watch with me again?"

LOL! i was like "YEAH!"

i really do sound like imma fan of such movies. i mean, not many girls(even guys.) like such sick movies.

i did watch final destination 2 & 3 which were equally sick. i had my fair share of hiding myself behind blankets and what not. but still able to make it through the whole movie without looking sick.

but i heard, the movie "saw 2." was disgustingly horrible. i heard that from a guy, mind you. "chainsaw massacare" was another one. damn, these americans.. able to produce movies like that.

ok, enough of movie critics and what not. i will tell you guys all about it after i watched the movie. :D

andddddddddd, just in case you kiddos under the age of 18 are wondering if youre eligible to watch the above mentioned movie..

the answer's no! hahahahaha!

sorry boyys & girls, its been rated m18. which means, IM ABLE TO!

WOO-HOO!

i can already picture myself throwing my i.d card at the person whose doing a spot-check to see if im legal, at the entrance of the cinema. while crunching on sweet-smelling popcorns and slurping on soda. :D
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ok im ending here! a full update later on at night! (:

oh, oh! now my dad's talking about shaolin and what not while watching jet li do his moves in the movie showin on channel 8 now with my brothers. like i can be bothered what they're talkin about.

just now my da was asking my bro if he knows electronic stuff he said he dont and got my dad to ask me cos i was once an engineering student.

"dont ask me!" i said.

regan, that motor mouth added.. "yeah she potengs school all the time, when shes in ite. she wont know much."

my dad added right after regan said: "yeah, for the whole 2 years. shes been playing truant, escaping school."

BLA~

well, yeah, I PONTENG SCHOOL ALL THE TIME WHILE I WAS IN ITE.

SO??

doesnt mean i was once an engineering student, i know shit about it. like i said, i never once showed interest in engineering. NEVER..

i wasted my life in there. 2 fucking years..
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to regan: shut the fuck up, u really need to learn when to open and CLOSE that trap of yours. (trap = mouth.)

to dad: u will look down on me till the day u die. im pretty sure about that.
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i cant be fucked if they come across this. this is what they had shown me.
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not slept for 24 hours, exactly. actually longer than that.. to hell with the world, im gonna sleep the night away.

bet everyone had heard about the attack of rihanna by her beloved boyfriend, chris brown.

hah!

sweet couple, much?


ooooh, so cute!

this commercial is so cute! im earning points on the website to get the walpaper, call me crazy. lolol.

ive got poptarts, they are sooooo good!(a little sweet thou)

im gettin more.

:D