sleeping at only 4:30am for the past 3 nights and waking up 4 hours later for work.

except on tuesday, i slept exceptionally early. right after i stepped into the house and had a shower. not even 1am.

see, miracles DO happen.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH!
**

& SO..

split shift, 4 days straight. didnt go for afternoon break. ended up falling asleep on the bus/ train on the way home to find myself not alighting at the stop im supposed to.

eye bags and dark circles.

this has to stop, really. :/
**

i'm nineteen! start acting and look like ure 19, caron.

Bah!
**

reason for updating this shit? to let y'all know that i am still alive. i am not half dead from al the pineapple tarts, ba kwa nor mandarin oranges. :D

come to think of it, im definitely NOT a fan of ba kwa. i didnt manage to finish half a bottle of pineapple tarts nor cans of soda.(it gets really heaty. i need all that sky juice already.)

super random, i know. but to compare al the previous years of indulging in CNY goodies, i must say its the least this yr.. probably cos of work.

damn! i talk nothing but work.

i must be the most boring 19 yr old kid on earth now.
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SOMEONE, CALL 911! ):

bye.

ooh, it's chinese new year.

red packets(highlight of CNY.)/ manadarin oranges/ pineapple tarts/ ba kwa and plate and plates of delicious food waiting for you to eat them. whats not to like? :D
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happy cheena new year everyone. get lotsa red packets and get fat!(from all the foodddddddd.)

girls dun take 'losing weight' as the excuse to avoid that bottle of pineapple tarts that catches your eye.

its the festive season, eat all u want. think about working out later.. its not like CNY happens ever week. its an annually affair! enjoy and EAT. (:
**

so i will be off to grandma's house later on. i finally get to see jay! the last time i saw the lil kid was on his 1st birthday! :/

and one thing i dread alot when i go there.. aunt taren's filipino maid.

ok, i dont dread.. just that she is s sickeningly annoying!

every year she come come and tell me the same thing.. (I WANNA SLAP HER FACE SIA!)

"hello, caron. you becoming fatter!"

trust me, she wld say this every year she sees me either during CNY or any other day. does she even know what a rude comment is? apparently i dont see she knows that is a rude comment even if its true.

the funny thing is.. shes fucking bigger than me. her tummy's bulging outta. when she sits on teh floor or chair.. where ever.

her then, bulging tummy.. magicaly seperates into 3 layers.

MIND YOU, 3 LAYERS!

like friggin kueh lapis, yo!(hmm, want some? *pukes*)

yet she gt the cheek to say im fat. WTF.. oh i see her cheek is as big as CHINA. that is why she calls me fat.

its ok if ure skinny or fit and u comment that im big, fat or anything lik that.

but i hate it most if someone looks worse then me wanna have a say at someone who is better than him/ her that he/ she suck.

if shes gonna say that in the day later on when i see her.. i wld say,

"eh u stupid bitch.. look at your ownself. youre fucking fatter than me and yet u gt the cheeck to call me fat. my tummy doesnt GO 3 WAYS when im sitting down!"

and shes possibly the laziest maid one can ever hire..

every single year, no matter whose house she visits.. she will not help to do any dishes/ clean the table or mop the floor! seriously..

and most of the time, i do the cleaning up of dishes.

shes like so afraid to do any of those. my grandma dont even bother to get her to do anything..

(THAT EXPLAINS WHY SHES A FUCKING LARD-ASS HERSELF.)

she wld just follow my anut's kids where ever they go. not allowing my cousins or brothers to play too much with the kid's. fucking arrogant also..

eh stupid maid.. my uncle is the one whose loaded. ure just another foreign slave workin for him and my aunty ok? dun talk as if.. u got a share in my uncle's family fortune or something.

when ur contract's up, ure good to go. pack your bags and fuck off back to wherever ure from.

no wonder, shes been working for my aunty for so many years! good life, eat so much. dun really needa do housework. decent pay.. WHO DONT WANT?!

aiya, dont know la.. i just know that im gonna be nasty to her if she calls me fat again. i will smash her face with teriyaki chicken. EH NO.. sambal belachan. in her eyes especially..

stupid kueh lapis tummy! spoil my favourite kueh with a tummy like urs.

your jeans, the way u wear it and as u walk.. ur jeans look like its gonna burst any idea..
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ok, im gone, im sleepy.. yawns*

ciao!
**

P.S: no offence towards the filipinos workers/ maids or foreign workers..

its just that i hate this maid talks too much and not help out in anyway. oh i frogot, her huge ass tummy me.

i better get this entry done, other wise god knows when will this be posted or just another entry posted as draft. -_- lol.

so yes, possibly the one and only blog entries with more than 4 pictures! hahahaha. i will do so more often ubt it's pretty troublesome without a camera. :/

it's 3:12am now, i will just put up a quick update about what had happened over the week. (:

so i had a haircut on tuesday..

instead of looking different from the haircut, i think i look different in a bad way.

1stly, all i wanted is a trim. so i told my aunt's assistant, "a trim would be good."

instead of a trim, i got a hair CUT instead. if that inst bad 'nough.. she chopped my hair off, almost 2 inches and it's friggin short now! still able to tie up but compared to whats before, theres an obvious change in hair length. -_-

why i wanted a trim, only? well, im intending to keep my hair long to see how it wld turn out. this is my first haircut in 6 months? :X (excluding the times i cut my bangs, DIY.)

so yes, a trim wld be good. to cut off all the split ends and what not. so that condition of hair wld be well & healthy.

anddddd, not only i have to wait all over again for my hair to grow to the length i desire. the time that is taking for the growth is way too long!

no, im not intending to grow it so long till it touches my butt crack. just longer than shoulder length. :D

when was the last time i had really long hair? when i was what? 5-6yrs old? LOL. that's like good ol' 14 years ago!(times flies.) til then, i had shoulder length(and short) hair ever since.

so this is how it looks like before the hair cut...

dont ask why this pose. i had no idea why, and shut up if u think i look like im gonna make out with the fan. lol, i know! see my hair ths long already, before!

after the damned, hair cut...

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see!? so short. :/ my facial expression tells u how sad i was. LOL.

not only that, while i was getting my hair cut.. this regular customer of my aunt's was sitting beside me, getting her hair cut and blow dry.

she kept telling my aunt about me.. (i heard it.)

"wa, your niece so cute.. look like japanese."

right after she said that, she added..

"look like japanese. ESPECIALLY THE EYES."

!!!!

for the 3000th time im telling you, im chinese(WO SHI HUA REN.) not japanese/ korean or which ever asian group you wanna put me with.

just cos my eyes are 'sepet' lookin, doesnt mean im japanese. just so, alot of japanese uve met have eyes like mine. or impression of japanese have gt eyes like mine, either way.

japanese girs these days gt huge eyes like they are gonna pop! so if u see my eyes, im prolly some japanese girl during your grandma's time. when plastic surgery isnt well known so does, big-eyed contacts. HEH.

by the way, thank you aunty for saying i look japanese cos of my eyes! -_-

so after i gt my bangs trimmed.. again the aunty commented,

"you look better with this frindge now! just now u look like a kid!"

my bangs were china-doll like before trimming. thats why..

FYI.. i wanna look like a kid, CANNOT EH?! people say i look like im 25. so i wanna have childish haircuts WHAT!

the aunty sounded like shes looking for future daughter in laws and i was the potential one. -_- thanks uh.

then she proceed to ask if im still studying or working. so i said.. er, working den she asked what i worked as and where.

i just replied her "imma cook. (:"

can i say the answer she gave me was pretty stupid?!

her answer "so u can cook??"

actually i cant cook. i only know how to mess up teh kicthen and cause near explosions. im dangerous. but i dont know why i was given the title "cook." cos im lucky or what??

!! stupid questions if u ask me. of cos i know how to cook thats why im given the title "cook."

den after all that she said "good good, i like girls who can cook."

thanks ah. lol.

so yes, end of teh aunty. its not that i hate people aksing me questions especially the elderly. just that this lady's too weird man. lol..

here are the pictures, below.. :D

note: this entry will be filled with foul words.

yes, im not in the mood to control my emotions and to refrain myself from using bad words of any sort. so pardon me for doing so.

i needa find a space to explode into million little pieces before im diagnose with severe stress syndrome or whatever u call it(hahahahaha!) bear with me for this entry and let me swear all i want.

if you do not want to read all the bad words, i suggest you to come back again till my next entry. other than that.. please feel free to read my little hateful comments on this DAMNED person.

i guess, i did my part for informing y'all. dont say that i didnt do any of that.

thank you and have a nice day. (:
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so it's the 2nd time, ive been called back to work on my wonderful, well-deserved day off.
**

why why why and why? u asked. well beats me. all i know was that i was still in bed, sleeping and it was very cold. the chef called me up and said..

"if i have to call u up at this time and when its your day off u know its no good news."

well i do know. even before i had to pick up the call. the caller i.d on my phone indicates his name. lol, not possible to call and say hello right?

so yes, chef asked if i cld do him a favour to go back to work. well of cos i had to do him this favour. we are short of staff. aunty rajes went back to india cos of some family problem going on there. she took leave and that can be excused.

but this prick who called in today to say he gt sore eyes cant be forgiven.(which leads to me having to go back to work.)

seriously, i dont see the need to firgive that fuck head.

"maybe he really do have sore eyes." you reasoned out with me.

well, too bad! even if hes for real! he had done that TOO MANY TIMES. constantly calling in sick.. giving the stupidest excuse not to come to work.

after working here for officially 3 months, i come to conclude hes been calling in sick for 5 times or so? i dont know. but im pretty sure its more than 3 times.

(excluding the time he had a 1 week mc to "recover" from that small scar on his hand, from the hot oil.. which he claims its a huge ass one. wrist to the arm, bandaged. WOAH!)

and what the fuck did u do to have sore eyes huh? a guy sprayed his load all over your eyes or what! to cause that sore in your eyes.

sore eyes? well, gouge your eyeballs out and soak it in chlorine. better yet, pour acid all over your face and DIE.

youre worse den a girl. i wonder how your girlfriend survived with ya for the past 2 years..

and guess what? youve gt the most disgusting body one had ever seen.
**

why did i say that? cos these guys change in teh locker room every single time.. and the huge ass fridge where we put our stuff is in there too. so when they change i wld be there too. and im not that kinda girl i get so uptight bout guys changing infront of me. its not like they strip naked infront of me or something, i cant be bothered if they did too.

they cld have change like in a corner or the changing room.. if a girl is a concern to them. but they dont and i dont. so who cares. -_- LOL. they do their chnaging i do my stuff. who cares.

ok so thats not the point.. so yeah, this faggot changed and i caught a glimpse of his body.
(its not like i look at him change or something, he happened to change infront of me. get it?)

GROSS FACTOR: 120/100.

yes, i know over the maximum points but yeah. its that disgusting. he said hes living with his gf for 2 years. u think they have never had sex before? who believes? not only that.. which girl can survive with that kinda body nevermind having sex with him? OMFG. gross..

its not that he has a beer belly or anything. but its much more disgusting than a beer belly. im not gonna say it here and i have not had my lunch yet. i dont wanna think about it and lose my appetite for lunch cos im staving now too. LOL

but whatever that is.. i dont care about how digusting his body looks. i just hate the attitude he gives when hes working. its not right.. well probably his parents taught him that way. HA HA HA. fuck you, moron!

i cant take it anymore. i needa go to bed.. its 12:10am now.

doze off, even while watching videos. thank god its day off tomorrow.

my mom & dad are arguing now. fucking annoying.. grr

ok, gotta run. ciao!

i know many girls in Singapore/ Asia wanna thank the creators of the famous, "Black Ring Contact Lens."

what good does it do, if you dont know.

its like your normal clear contacts with a black ring at the rim. when u put it on, it enlarges your pupil. making your eyes look "bigger."

so after this was introduced, many girls rushed to get their hands on one box or a few.

ok, it really does make your eyes look "bigger." an illusion if u ask me. i got one pair too, but for free. there was this sms promotion going on the other time and my friends ask me to go get it, so i did. for fun. i try it on.. ok la.

but i didnt like it. i wouldnt spent a bomb on those for daily usage, its either i stick to the clear ones or colored ones. which i normally use.
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these days, alot of girls depend on those lens. some misuse it a little too much.. i guess, girls who are blessed with big eyes dont need it. but i was wrong, even girls with big beautiful eyes make use of them too.

"yeah, it will make them look hotter!"

that reply probably came from a retarded typcial singapore chinese dude.
from what i see, it looks weird. retarded if u ask me.. so i wanna tell girls with big and beautiful eyes...

"hello, girls with huge almond-like eyes. please leave those black ring contacts alone. u dont need em. how much bigger can eyes get? if ure bless with those. embrace it and make it beautiful with eye-make up or falsies or something. leave those contacts to girls who have small eyes like ME. they need those, i dont think u need those."

seriously, everytime i friendster hop, i wld see a few girls with those contacts on, their eyes looked like they are gonna pop out any minute from the picture. like i needa get a net to catch those eyeballs.

not only that, they look like they are staring(yes, a stare.) at the camera, instead of looking all cute with those mesmerizing eyes.

dont believe??

here's an example:



im staring at you... give me all your money.




im cute, cos i stuck my tongue out. now wld u like to be my friend?? :D
**

yeah, this is how they look like. but of cos they look better la. not like what i did. LOL. its only an example.

if ure thinking im wearing the big eye contacts, the part on wearing contacts, yes. i am. part on wearing big-eyes contacts, no.

im wearing freshlook radiance thou, if u wanna know. lol. (they are wonderful! go get a pair! lol)

and, u will not believe how hard is it to stretch my eyes to the extreme for these pictures. ive got small eyes and forcing my eyes to open THIS wide was a challenge. LOL.

i even adjusted the contrast and brightness of the pictures to make it look even bigger, clearer. lol.
**
ANNIE-WAY..

im not hating these girls but i dont see a point in putting those on when ur eyes are already huge. and u know, those contacts come in 2 colors, either the brown or black-ring. so alot go for black ring ones.

when they take close up shots, the flash goes off. u can clearly see the ring of the contacts and your eye. cos no human eye is BLACK in color. its dark dark brown. can only be seen under direct light.

of cos, it looks all black when direct light is not shone on your eyes, but pictures do show. why? teh cause of camera flash, clearly shows the difference in color.
**

mesmerizing if u ask me? yeah, somehow. but it looks kinda scary too. when u smile, its only the mouth that is smiling, your eyes just stay there staring at me. your eyes arent smiling. :/

ok, that sums up my whole entry. bla~ bye. (:

..my romance with Troy, ended. (:

but that's ok! ive recovered.

for the past couple of months.. ive met this really sweet dude, stars. we really hit it off and yeah, he asked me out. weve been together, ever since!

we're together for the past, i dont know.. 5 months or so? yeah. we're still going gooooooood. :D
**

soooooooo he came over to my place yesterday night and we took pictures! lolololol.

lookie, lookie! :D
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???!!

HAHAHAHHAHHAAHA!

LOLOLOLOLZZZZZ

OWNED!~
**

sorry, if u actually it was real. omgod, im so good at this. ah ha! i bet some of you are cursing yourselves for believing me! woooooh!

boy, that felt good! for once.. pardon me, i was bored.. yesterday night.

i get a lil cranky when night falls.(shut up if u say im like that all the time be it rain or shine. :b)

lol, now that i'm done with tricking all of ya. im gone!

adios!

things up in my mind now is like shuffling a pack of cards. i dont know what comes first and whats next. its all mixed & which ever card is chosen first, is shown. just like what is all in my mind now. jumbled up. so i will just blog randomly.

...like i always do.
**

holy moley. less than 10 minutes to 5am.

thank god, it's day off for later on and the following day. claimed PH. i needa clean my room before the painting starts.
**

as i was saying like a month ago, i wanna "spring-clean" my blog layout. but i guess i have to push that to a later date. no time for all the html code editing now.
**

can i even say that i am physically and mentally tired already? if so..

i hereby, declare that, i am mentally and physically exhausted. i needa get away and not think about anything.. throw everything to teh back of my mind.

sip lemonade and hear the waves crash against the rocks on a sunny day,
sun shining oh-so-brightly high up in the blue sky.
clouds were barely seen. birds soaring in the sky.. carefree.
sounds of laughing, children.
ice cream man ringing the bell to attract more customers.

love is in the air..
with couples strolling by the beach, holding hands or simply, cuddling each other to enjoy each other's company and warmth(?)

kites flying high.
with the vibrant colors painted on the kites itself, the green, blue and purples did nothing but added color to the clear blue sky.

happy children, building sand castles out of pails and spades. digging a big hole fr their friend to get in and covering it back with the sand they have dug out previously.

the mummies just sit under the big tree, enjoying the sea breeze and chatting up a storm.
**

isnt life blissful, this way? like how i had described? i wish..
**

of cos, i dont totally hate work so much that i needa throw all of it in the back of my head..

aside from the bad things.

i see the finer side of work.. lemme briefly explain..
**
here goes:

i go through bustling noises of the ventilator in the kitchen and yells("ORDER, IN!") from the chef for a new order.

clanking of dishes and bowls.

smell of char-grilled chicken and banger(English Pork Sausages.)

the buzzing sound of the huge-ass oven. the buttery mouth-watering, apple pie. the sweetness of vanilla ice cream.

the tanginess of the lemon mousse.

not forgetting the smokey flavoured sliced salmon.

sound of the running water from the tap and the microwave oven goes "beep beep beep."
**

do i enjoy what i am doing? i have to say pretty much yes. tiring yet satisfying.. to see the smile of the customers and teh feedbacks is totally rewarding.

besides all that, the friends and laughter i've made? awesome. thou, a few douchebags still exist, but lets just push all these ignorant people all the way to the back of this beautiful picture and admire it.
**

i guess ive said enough. alot more still in my mind. in the process of "shuffling." but i can't take it anymore. my eyelids weigh a tonne. i needa snuggle in my blanket and sleep the day away........

dont ask me out, i dont feel like it. im just gonna stay away from the outside world for the whole of today. :]
**

well, laters.

am i retarded or what???

my previous post, i was telling y'all that i misplaced my mp3 right?? my bro was digging my bag just now looking for something and he found my mp3.

i was like "WHERE DID U FIND IT?!!!?"

he replied "uhhhh, in your bag?"

i went crazy and said "REALLY!? DAMMIT I THOUGHT I LOST IT. IVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR DAYS I CANT FIND IT!!!!!"

he proceeds to give me that "uh, my sister... always lik that." kinda look.

yahooooooooooo! now i need not buy a new one already. ha ha ha.

just wanted to come here to tell y'all i found it. LOL.
**

call me crazy but i bought self-tanner earlier on. still a noob so i experiment it on my legs. im wearing pants most of the time(at work.) so if the tan screws up, it will still be "concealed." HA HA HA!

ok, im gone. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

1st picture of 2009. (not including those taken at the hotel room. lol.)

a morning face it is, i took that right after i woke up(WHAT?! nothing wrong ok?? you dont need a time or the 'feel' to take a picture.) thus the messy hair and tired face. i look like i was freezing for some reason. -_- maybe thats what i thought.

yes, my nose is like the whole face or something.. look at my eyes instead la! small but still can be seen!

IM CHINESE WHAT. :b

ok, whatever.
**

besides turning 19. a year older and lost something very dear to me. :( and that's my mp3 player. god damn, i am still thinking how i lost that wonderful gadget of mine.

*fashbackkkkkk*

ok, i paid the cashier for the box of Merci chocolate ive bought at Jason's supermarket.

before that i was meddling with my wallet trying to get cash out.

i just dump my ear piece and music player in my bag. paid the cashier, retrieve my stuff and bolt outta there. i was already late for work.. -_-

got into the locker room. changed into my uniform. took my things out. check if my phone, wallet and music is in there.

(i gt that habit to make sure my things are in there for the past few years. after losing god knows how many things already. ESP MY FRIGGIN EZ-LINK CARDS. yes, more than one card. thats why i used 'CARDS.' instead of 'card'.)

my mp3 isnt in there! i dig some more. the inside of my bag is in a mess!

magazines/ book/ pieces of paper. lip balm/ body spray/ pens/ markers/ some more scraps of paper, even coins.

in the end, i empty the contents which was in my bag on teh floor. coins falling out. huge mess like a rode-side stall at thieves' market.

couldnt find it! grrrrr..

great, now my music player is gone.

r.i.p, Samsung YP-T9 purple colored mp3 player.

march' 08 - 31st december '08.

damn! all the good songs in there are gone. saved tonnes of awesome pictures in there too.

i told my colleagues "the good things will not come if the old one is still around." ha ha ha! just to patronize them a little la.

now i am searching for a good and cheap music player. LOL, thought i cld buy a few more things with my pay. now i am gonna spend an amount of it on a music player.

life's a bore without music. ive never heard of anyone not liking songs/ music.

my parents are not aware yet, other wise.. they will kill me. -_-

ok, im gone.
**

on the happier side.

my room wall is changing it's skin!(i mean color.) a new year, a new wall color and hopefull new things popping up in my room. better yet, more money rolling into my account.

cant wait to save up to go to Long Beach, CA. to visit, suri love! :D :D

shes going back in 2 months' time. ):

ok, im outta point. gotta flyyyyyyy~ (i mean, run!)

BYE.

1st post for 2009!
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ok, so apart from being officially nineteen. i wanna wish anyone whose reading this a "HAPPY 2009!" :D all the best and god bless!

seems like "happy new year, all teh best and god bless." goes hand in hand. loooool.

i just reached home like 45 minutes ago. caught the fireworks at the balcony of the hotel room(swissotel.) at the 41st floor! fireworks was awesome! right infront of my eyes. bright and colorful.

whats not to like?! heh. its better than standing opp esplanade catching it. (:

had a couple of drinks. i hate beer.. but for new year's day. exceptional! (: no i didnt get drunk nor wasted. pretty stupid if u ask me.

had pretty good food and colleagues and friends crazy dancing in the room. i wonder whta they are up to now.

thanks to lyon for the lift. other wise, i wld be staying there till the morn. i like my bed more.
**

thanks all for the belated birthday song with me standing in the middle of the huge circle. after which poured wine all over me. stink ballsz!

OK. now my hair smells like some sorta wine.. i gotta go shower and head to bed. well needed rest. work later on at 11am! new years day! :D :D
**

happy new years day to all my friends and family members.

lovers out there, keep lovin and stay happy! (:

ciao!
**

p.s: what did i wish for on my nineteeth? i wonder..

p.s.s: what are your new year resolutions? tell me about it!

p.s.s: pay day's here! yahoooooooo..

p.s.s.s: i'm getting a ________. :D (!!!!!!)