Sorry for the lack of updates. My computer is down. Dad sent it for repair for the 2nd time after only 2 weeks from the 1st repair.

Now, Acer said that.. The motherboard is screwed. I have to fork out 100dollars for it while my bro fork out another 100dollars to get the motherboard replaced. 100 dollars seem like a small amount to you, but t isnt to me. Do you know how much I can do with 100 dollars? LOADS! & after all that, I wld be left with nothing to spent. This month's pay day, suck totally cos it involves al that paying. URGH!

After knowing the family coputer's motherboard is screwed. My precious songs from my mp3 is vanished into thin air. 100+ tracks! I transferred it to the computer first. So basically my mp3 is empty. Now is all gone. I have to download all over again.

A spring cleaning for my mp3? Righttttt..
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Besides that, after all that shit that had happened to me. Not really serious, but I was annoyed by such people. What do they get from humiliating me.

Posting my picture on the net for some pageant contest and got insulted/ made fun of, BLA BLA BLA. Is it a pageant? I DONT KNOW and I DONT WANT TO KNOW, either.

By the way, the pageant/ contest I was talking about is the famous, HEY GORGEOUS.. Hosted by Media Corp, Channel U. Funny enough?!

Some people even thought, I nominated myself there. Give me 5 reasons why on earth I would do that?

1. Attract attention?
2. Gain fame?
3. Think that I AM hot and I AM able to win.
4 Let cute guys/ guys know that MY existance.? (*Screams* "HELLO, IM HERE!" *WAVES*)
5. Media Corp should totally hire me cos I can act as dramatic as they want me to?
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3 words...

What
The
Fuck???

NO NO NO, those 5 reasons are not the reason and I cross my heart, hope to die that I will NEVER EVER EVER EVER, post my picture/s there to join such competitions. Why?

1. I am not interested.(Ive never thought of modelling and acting. So not me. Modelling/ Acting isnt what I wanna pursue.)

2. What's the point?(Seriously, what's the point? ITS SINGAPORE! HELLO! Not Taiwan/ Hong Kong. Yeah, u sure get famous in SINgapore and your own campus. But that is only temporary. Not life long fame, y'know?)

3. I know WHERE I STAND.(Like what I say, modelling/ acting isnt my thing. I know where I stand. I dont wanna embarrass myself and get insult for nothing. Like Ive already gotten for NOTHING. For something which I didnt even think of doing. -_-)

4. That competition is open for students. Be it.. You're from any Junior Colleges, ITEs, Universities or Polytechnics. NOT members of the public. (I am NO longer a student, so does that give a MAIN reason not to join? IT IS. Cos If I doid, I am violating the rules, already.)

5. I dont have the time. (I dont even have time to meet up with my mates to talk shit. When I go online, it's the wee hours in the morn. Where everyone is dead asleep. I work 6 days a week now. U THINK I GOT TIME TO JOIN UH?)

6. I, just wanna be a regular human being/kid. (Cant I? You think celebrities lead a carefree/ normal life?)

7. People who know me, very well. Know that I dont fancy such stuff. (Its so true. You dont believe? PLEASE KINDLY ASK MY FRIENDS TO KNOW. THANK YOU.)
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So, those are my 7 TOP reasons. I wouldnt join such competitions. Eve that doesnt convince you, then Ive got nothing to say. Start believing that I really did nominate myself and actually make a fool out of myself.

But I will still prove my point..

If I really did want to join the competition, I would have put a better looking picture of myself and obviously, real information about myself.

What for u put fake information about yourself in such competitions? When U wanna get supporters/ friends/ family members to suppor and most importantly, vote for you?

And yes, in such contest, people would definitely look at your face first before they vote or judge you. Of cos you put a better looking picture of yourself to then gain votes/ fame.

The picture which was used was honestly one of my retarded/ spastic looking picture, ever. I dont know how the fucker who sabotaged me gt the picture. Im surprised, he/ she got the picture.

So that picture was used. Think, people, think! If I wanna join Hey Gorgeous, would I use the picture to gain votes/ fame and impress judges?

Yes? No? Of cos I wouldnt! -_- Wa lao. Use your brains la, brainless fucks.

So haters, just jump for joy that I got sabotaged this way. Ive already contacted Channel U about this and after the 2nd time I emailed them.. (Not really me. Suf did it on behalf of me. Cos my computer is down. I just told her what to type.)

They had gotten me to reply them back my full name and I/C no. In order to take my picture off. For what reason, I dont know But I just gave them my full name and I/C no.

& they had apologised for the inconvenience caused, which I wanna tell them.. Its MORE than inconvenience. Seriously..

As for the comments on the site "I" have recieved is just nasty like the bunch of people who had commented can do a milion times better. -_- I wish these people go to hell and I wld like to tell em.. I am not that thick-skinned to do this. Too busy to be joining such competitions and I was sabotaged. Thats why U guys had the chance to insult me that way.

For those who bet that I gt sabotaged and told me not to be taken down by these nasty comments. Thank you. I really appreciate it.

For friends who had come across it and actually commented on the page to defend me. Thank you so much. I really appreciate too. At least y'all believe me. (: Ive got people like y'all to care for me, I cant be bothered what others think.

My friends got quite pissed after reading the comments. What about me? The victim. I got even more pissed and felt unfair. I wasnt down, didnt shed a tear and stuff.

I just pity the culprit for not leading a proper life like how normal human beings do.

I pity his sense of humor. His sense of humor just screams pathetic and if he enrols himself in School of Clowns, I wld give him a huge red F on his final year exams.

I pity that he doesnt have cool/ nice friends with him and his parents didnt give him enough love and affectionate, thats whyhe resorts to doing things like that.

Most importantly, what I wanna ask him is that..

"You actually wasted almost 10 minutes of your time to register yourself on teh site to get a confirmation email and den upload my picture, gave fake info about me.?

Man, u seriously have got no life. Youre worse than me. Do you know I can watch like.. a part of Dane Cook's stand-up comedy with the time u used to create a FAKE biodata for me?! If you wanna be funny, try watching Dane Cook/ Russell Peters' stand-up comedy. They might teach u a trick or 2, how to be funnny!"
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I wanna laugh at your stupidity. You think I wld just sit down infront of the computer, slamming my keyboard and gnawing the sides of my cheeks till it's sore and bloody. Bite my knuckles so hard that it leaves bite marks.

I am not a stupid fool and know nothing about the cyber world. I know what to do. I can just report matters to teh police and get you sued in court till u cry for your mom, she have to work extra hard by selling packets of tissue infront of train station, by bailing u out.

But I guess, u wouldnt be out that soon, cos shes selling 3 packets of tissue for a dollar! How many packets is she gonna sell to bail you out for like an example of er, 2000dollars?! If knowing that fact that his son got thrown in jail cos he grabbed someone else' picture to do shit about it without the person's permission, besides that, the person did nothing to you.

Do you think fellow Singaporeans wld gladly buy packets of tissue from your mom? Looking pitiful & starving herself to death.. HELL NO! I pity your mom, I mean parents. WHy did they give birth to a kid like you. WHY?

To send you into school, learn facts and skills about computers and how to surf the net. You actually misuse teh things u know for such an act.

After all that, I will just sit there and laugh at your plight while I sip on Iced-Lemon tea and say 'WHAT A DAY! ANOTHER FOOL TRYING TO PUT ME DOWN. Try harder, next time!'

If that doesnt work, I will just vent my frustration on you. All that anger and humiliation Ive gotten for something I have not done, but smashing your face till u look semi retarded. I mean not mentally retarded but physically, looking retarded and snap pictures of youself and start posting it everywhere. U wil gain instant fame.

Better yet, have raunchy hot passionate sex. Tape it down and sent it to me by accident. I am good in braodcasting. I will make you suffer worse than the infamous Tammy. Ive got friends interested in local porn videos. I bet, my friends' friend are equally interested too. I will help u with it.

YOU FUCKING BASTARD!

You shall fucking burn in hell already. I wonder why the hungry ghosts didnt take you along with em when the Hungry Ghost Festival had ended where they are supposed to return to teh gates of hell. I think, they forgot abut you. Thats why youre still wandering around. Cos youre too disgusting for em to be taken back.

See even ghosts/ ghouls and monsters do not want you. I guess, youre uglier than me. Not only an ugly face but an ugly personality as well. You personality is ugly and disgusting.. You dont know it, but now its time for u to realise it. Suck that shit, you muthafucker!
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I have got pictorial evidence for all that, Ive saved it.

So stay tune for that. I will post all the ugly comments and my "hot" looking picture, here.. For you to look at it. By then, laugh all you want. I cant be fucking bothered. Everyone have got times they take spastic-looking pictures of themselves. Im not alone. (:

You will be surprised by the comments being posted. I am surprised too.

From telling me Im fat and ugly to people telling me if they are my mom/ dad they wld have strangeled me to death upon giving birth to a kid who looks like that.

To insulting how my fringe looks. EVEN MY FRINGE BOTHERS PEOPLE SIAL. I am super sad.

But I am laughing at those comments as well. Cos most of em are typed in broken English or words that doesnt exist at all. -_- Im referring to hate comments.

If you wanna insult, type in words that is able to impress me. Not typing in half fuck English and horrible grammar to tell ME how bad I look. Wel yeah, at least I speak and type well. You look good but you type like youre in pre-school.

GET A LIFE!

I deleted yesterday's entry and I am so PISSED now.

Read this: I.am.fucking.pissed.

Ok, not as pissed as an hour or 2 ago, Cousin, Suf and Raman knows what happened.

It concerns me, I dont wanna get public humiliation for something I have not done. Like totally, I will not do that.. Im not that attention-seeking and inviting trouble for myself. Im busy enough to deal with other problems.

I just emailed Channel U, Im waiting for their reply. I will tell y'all more when I get a reply from them. THEY BETTER!

I bet some of you fuckers wld be so happy that I got humiliated. Like finally your hatred towards me, revenge is done by others. Not you. Oh u sick fuckers, go fuck the wall and screech like a chicken. I cant be bothered with yall. I know Ive gt friends and people who care for me and stuff.

I dont need haters to come to try spoil my day, try harder is my advice to you. Think you can put me down by your sneaky actions, cunning ones. HAH! Youre wrong.

I guess, I'll never be able to cater to everyone's needs and make everyone happy. Cos some of you people out there dont deserve it.

Seriously, whats the point I treat u like a goddess when u talk shit behind my back and make me look like a ugly slut which u & I know, I'll never do something like that. WHY!

You know? I DONT fucking care how you see and think of me. Cos you, haters obviously have got a problem or something hatred towards me. No matter how much I prove myself of someone I am NOT capable to be. Its stuck in your thick skull that in your eyes, Im such a person, so be it. I cant give a flying fuck.

For your information, all these while.. I'm always being myself not being someone else I am NOT capable of. I repeat, NOT CAPABLE OF. You fuckers, get me?

5 years ago, I was still the same ol Caron. 5 years later, today.. I am still Caron. Its not lie Ive become Charlotte the next day and Chloe, next week. I am not trying hard or anything.

THIS IS ME.

Crazy, Witty, Hyperactive, Talkative, Too frank, Sarcastic(VERY.), Loud, Somtimes whiny, Vulgar, Rough, Smiley, Cheerful, Bubbly, Tom-boyish.

& the list goes on. Ask my friends who know me since I was 13. Aud, Suf, Cindy. They know me since I was 13. It's been 6 friggin years. Have I changed a bit? Personality wise..

I can loudly say, NO.. I didnt change a bit. Probably became crazier and much more sarcastic. & that isnt a dramatic change to the lifestyle Im leading. Does it?

If you think I am, noisy, fat, short, big, fugly, disgusting..

My mom should have strangled me , on the day I was born.Then I suggest you keep on fantasizing about how am I gonna get killed or how disgusting I look and scare the living hell out of yourself.

It doesnt affect me nor people who care for me. It's gonna make you super mad and even angrier why sucha person like me, exist.

Anyway, if you cant give a fuck about what I do and the things I say or worse, how I look. DEN WHY KEEP ON TALKING ABOUT HOW HEAVY AM I or how ugly I look? Why?

If you dislike me, you'll never look/ talk about me, NEVER. Get it?

Ok, now go fuck teh wall and think about how dogs hump.

2 words for losers like you out there,

FUCK YOU.

finally, i am done with, w.c.

a new place, tomorrow. wish me luck. (:
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just here to tell y'all that i am done with w.c. super happy! lol.. but i'll def miss teh laughter and fun i had with my ex-colleagues.

nothing much to blog about these days. maybe i can start blogging about my non-existent fantasies. funny thing is that, people actually believe all that bull crap.

they claim "they seem so real, detailed. cant be fake!"

lol. sorry lovelies, they are FAKE. reason why i make up stories..(i may have said this before.)

1. so that my blog wld seem much more interesting. (what a fake! yes. bu, SO WHAT!?)
2. others wouldnt think that i'mma boring/ dull person. (sorry lah, my life is really boring. i do not have one. :X)
3. i like making up stories for a laugh! lol(may not be real but it's still worth a smile or heaps of laughter.. right? Right.)

ok, that's about it.

i am currently having some kinda malt candy on a stick now. u know those? u find at the popcorn store when u visit your nearby pasar malam? yeah those, just that not that gooey and soft.

what about it? you asked.

well, i suck on teh candy too much, it breaks apart and now it sticks to teh back of my front teeth! urghhhh.

sounds gross but i will try go take it out now, or else cavities and what not will start to form! lol.

ciao!

what did i do wrong for you to look at me that way.

make love not war. friends not enemies.. i swear to god that i;ve never done anything to harm you. why do you look at me like imma wanted criminal yet to be caught by the police yet. why?

i wanna be like the past, we laugh and talk. not giving each other that cold look and not knowing what to say. i had to pretend to look at my phone or pretend to text someone in order to avoid the embarrassment.

u say i wasnt the one. but u acted like i am the one who had caused all that shit. i didnt want that too, do i? after all.. im not very happy too. why would i cause someone in trouble and get em out so that i can continue to stay in there and do what i want? i dont. i dont have that intention. i wanna get out asap too.

why?
why?
why?

why is it my good intentions wld turn to bad ones. am i really that mean/ evil? am I?! am i really sucha pain to everyone..

i am really disappointed over what had happen. even thou all of us are not talking now. but we used to work together. the frinedship's there. one small matter break all that apart and now im seen as teh black sheep.

sigh..

Think you can look this cute at Sentosa, boxers and legs covered in sand with a diaper on, soaked with sea water? (Look at his biceps. I also dont have leh.)

Not you but Jayden Tan was able to pull off that look giving the pouty expression in this picture.. His mommy wld be so proud of him.

But his aunty is lovin this picture cos it looks so cute. :D Esp the part which it seems like his bottom is gonna drop off anytime!

Ok, gotta go. Im sleepy already.

His mommy is gonna be so mad of me if she sees this. 1stly stole the picture from her Friendster account and upload it on my own Friendster account. Den now upload it here.

Eh cannot uh? I wanna show off. AMELIA! U SHOULD BE PROUD of me. Later your son win the cutest kiddy award how? Credits goes to me ok! :X

S.H.R = Selamat Hari Raya.
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Selamat Hari Raya, folks! (: I feel like Im part of festival too. LOL, cos I recieved my pay cheque today. *runs around in circle like an red indian.* Lik a big fat green packet, yo!

But the process of getting the money in my pocket, made me wanna sink into the sofa like quick sand.. Have to wait! Its a cross cheque and today's a PH! :/ After that, 1 working day to friggin process. Cos they wanna check if the cheque is real. LOL

So being sweet as I always do. :b I sent text messages to all my Hari Raya celebratin friends, wishing them, S.H.R..

RAMAN that heartless chap texted me back..

"Thanx! But who is this?"

Sorry uh, not any chio bu, hot babe you know on Friendster texting you.

SORRY HOR! (:
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Annie-ways, I just got back home. Its been raining the whole afternoon and its still raining now. Its gonna be 5am in 15 minutes time. Im gonna dive into bed already. Im working at 4pm later on..

So when I got home about to enter the lift. I saw a huge mess which was made at the lobby area. Apparently my neighbours(Same block, different floor are also neighbours what, correct?) did spring cleaning and threw their unwanted furniture/ items at the lobby area for teh cleaners to pick up tomorrow to dispose it.

Well yeah, but for god's sake please do it in a proper way? Dont just dump teh shit there and go back and come back down again own the same shit and walk away. Not only your blocking other resident's way. Youre making the cleaners' life difficult. :/

Imagine they have to clear all your mess/ sweep bring it to the rubbish dump early in the morn, while u cook up a storm. Rendang/ Curry and wear nice nice to go visiting. Be considerate, people!

Im not pointing fingers at anyone right now, just happen to be the bunch who are spring cleaning their homes and dump unwanted items not the way its supposed to be disposed.

Regardless of race/ age group.. There are always a bunch of losers who love to create nonsense like this to make everyone hate. Thats why, stereotyping is everywhere! I stereotype people too. Everyone does!

Let's be nice and Santa shall give us a bigger gift this year. HEEHEE.

Ok, I gotta go. Before I end, Ive got a message to my muslim/ Hari Raya celebrating friends. & that issss..

Save some Hari Raya goodies for me can? LOL.
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Alright. Look suave in your Baju Kurung and Songkok now. Girls look curvy with your extra tight kerbaya and high heels already. I shall go envy people eating Hari Raya goodies also. :/
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P/S: Above mentioned isnt against anyone nor race. Just against inconsiderate people. Thats all. (: I hope you understand.