Short entry, before i go to bed. It's 4am already. Holy-molly!

Everyone, please put your hands togetha and congratulate me! It's because, I've got work at 12pm later on.

"Nice one, Caron! *CLAPS*"

"My pleasure, anytime. (: *BOWS*"

Ok, whatever.. So my intention for this short lil entry is to tell you how much this pointless lil word just pisses me off whenever I hear someone say it. I mean, not knowing how to pronounce it but try to pronounce it and think they're right. Really!

You probably do that too. Yes, the one readintg this. You do that, admit it. Lol, I'm not saying I'm perfecto.. Infact, I did say it the wrong way a few times. But now I know. I say it right. Hee-hee (:

"Ok, Caron. Stop telling us how perfect you are in pronouncing words, I can too, duh! Whats the word that bugs you like you always get irritated over small lil things. For instance, I said 'is' instead of 'are' in that sentence. Urghhhhh."

The word, ok.. Not really a word but it's an abbreviation. OK WHATEVER.. If im gonna be so particular if it's a word or abbreviation. That will take up another 60 minutes which is an hour's time to state the differences. & again some dumb arse just dont see the difference. HA HA! Loser.

So the word(since some of you, see it as a word.)/abbreviation is AKA.

Tell me how u pronounce it?

Before you attempt to pronounce it, lemme tell you almost 60% of the Singaporeans wld pronounce it as "AHH-KAHH." Right, right?! Right. I did that last time till I watched a few videos and go find out on Wikipedia. I corrected myself and now Im good and not like a stupid ass to pronounce it as "AHH-KAHH."

That isnt the correct pronounciation! LOL. It's pronounce as it is. Like "A-K-A." Get it? Say "EH-KAY-EH." That's how u pronounce it! (: Now u learn something new, *ahem*

So yes, kiddos.. No more yelling to your friends/ anyone that has a nick name, for example:

"HEY LOOK, THAT'S JOHNNY 'AHHHH-KAHHH' SHORTY!"

It's gonna make u look stupid and yes, sound stupid also. (:
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Just the other day, this new chap had started working at my work place. He works at the same station as me. I was havin my lunch break..

& He wanted to look for this cheese so he came running out, acting all panic as if, 2 masked robbers came charing into the store with a shot gun in both of their hands threatening him to hand over the Emmenthal cheese(WHAT? A cheese robber! Not interested in the money ah?! HAHAHAHAHA.) other wise they wld give him a good blow in his head.

I think they should cos he's retarded and old.(FUCKING 32 YRS OLD.)

And he kinda exclaim which nevertheless gave me a shock of my life. Who wouldnt? I was talking to my colleague and enjoying the rest of my break time..

Out of a sudden this, crazy 32 yr old dude come running out talking loudly telling u this cheese had already ran out like as if like what I said, either 2 masked cheese robbers came in asking for cheese or else wld give him a head shot. Other wise, without the cheese existence in another 5 minutes or so.. The world would end and the sky wld drop. -_-

Back to him, came running out telling me we have ran out of the Emmenthal cheese.. This was exactly what he said ok?! No joke, I didnt make this up just becase I love to make up stories. LOL.

Btw, his name is Justin. (WTF, same name as my cousin!)
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Conversation in mandarin, btw.

J: CARON! CARON! We dont have "Amanda" anymore! What are we gonna do??!

(Feel like laughing? That was what he said ok! LOL, Amanda. That's my cousin's name and co-incidentally.. Both my cousin Justin & Amanda are siblings!)

C: Huh? Amanda? Whose that? We have no Amanda working here, as far as I know.

(Ive been working there for 2 months close to 3. He's been there like les than a week. How come he knows there's a girl named Amanda working there whom Ive never come across before? *Gulps* Dont scare me leh!)

J: What? NO LAAAAA.. Not aa staff named Amanda la! It's the cheese! "AMANDA" cheese! Have u not heard of it before??

C: Er, no. For as long as I know. Ive not heard a cheese named "Amanda" or any of that sort. Wth is that?!

J: ITS AMANDA CHEESE!
(He wanna make it sound like "Ok, Im right and you ARE wrong." manner? URGHHH!)

C: *Thinks.* Are you trying to say Emmenthal cheese?!

J: Yes, that's right! Emmenthal(He pronounce it as "Amanda.") cheese! Yeah, we've run out of that.

C: *Begins to laugh like a crazy bitch.* How possibly Emmenthal & Amanda sound alike?! They sound totally different. OMFG!

J: Sorry la, I failed my English mah. Cannot blame me right?

C: Yeah, I know. But its funny! *Continue to laugh.* They dont sound alike.. AT ALL!

J: Aiyah, whatever laaaaah.
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Firstly, Emmenthal is pronounced as "M-MAN-TILE." I was taught to pronounce this way. Im still gonna look up for the pronounciation, one day.

So now tell me, does "M-MAN-TILE" sound like "ER-MAN-DER" ?!?!!?

If you said yes, I suggest that you go date Justin already. He's single and available. THEY DONT SOUND ALIKE!

Ok, they just.. DON'T! & Tht's final!

Oh god, I wonder how that guy can come up with sucha name for the cheese. Ok, Im gonna name..

Gouda as "Geraldine."
Gruyere as "Greenie."
Ossau as "Oscar"
Brie as "Brad"
Tome Basque as "Tom Baxtor"
Manchego as "Manchester"

It's gonna be so fffffffuuuuuuuunnn. Then I dont have to deal with french pronounciation and make ridiculous faces. We shall just give each cheese an American name. How's that! (:

Besides, that Justin dude giving human names to cheeses. He's gross too. Apparently, he likes the Blue Stilton cheese. He tells me it's delicious. OMG! Why would it be? You know why?

Cos that cheese STINKS helllll. Blue cheese generally have gt a stronger smell and taste as well. EEEEK!

Everytime Im asked to cut that, I have to hold my breath. Trust me, your poop smells better. It smells like, garbage truck. You know your neighbourhood garbage dump? Yeah, it smells like that. Gross not?! :O *Pukes.*

Not only that, he farts.

Normally, I have no problems with human fart. They do that out of boredom. Yes, teh guys especially. Like the louder their fart is. Victory wld be in their hands. It kinda bugs me when you fart in the middle of a serious conversation or u stop me out of a sudden den you fart. LOL. It's disturbing yet funny!

So yes, in general I cant give a fuck if you fart. I wld just give u that look and say 'What the hell!' and that's it. But for this case I can never stand it.

He farts at the deli station where poeople are workin and I was a few metres away from him. Nevermind, after that he said "That feels good." in mandarin!

Comical enough? I say no!

Hello, hygeine! Wheres ur sense of hygeine? Im beginning to suspect do all Shatec students have that common habit to let out gas in the middle of practical lessons in the kitchen when youre handling with food and stuff. I mean passing gas loud enough for your colleage/ friend to hear!

Yes, he's from Shatec. He proudly announced that he graduated from there.

"Er, ok.. No one asked, anyway!"

So there is more than 1 reason to show an example that ure much more hygeinic/ cleaner than someone who doesnt graduate from any culinary school/ place which is MOI.

Omg.. Luckily he wld be gone by the 1st of Oct to another outlet! Thank god.
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Kk, gotta run! It's gonna be 5 soon! Argh, a short entry that leads to a long one! LOL. But I had fun. Hope u had fun reading it too. I shall go say Hi to "Amanda" tomorrow, whose standing in the cold fridge at Wine Connection's Bistro! :D

"grape/s, anyone?"

that is obviously not my lips. looks fun thou. lol. (: i mean the picture..

her teeth looks white. :D

annie-way, im at my grandma's place now. gg off soon..

oh yeah, did u know that im constantly hungry, nowadays? -_- i dont know if work's the cause to it, but yeah. i eat alot but small portions. i only sit down and have a proper big meal on my of, days.. seriously!

and other than that, i eat alot of fruits. lo, how can u resist those sweet smelling rock melon slices meant for the platters huh? who can!

lol, if u didnt know.. rock melons are expensive fruits(in singapore.) not the half-fuck rock melons. the real ones. like yest, weve ran out of rock melon slices. so i went to cold storage to get some before dinner time at work. i tot one wld be like what? $5-$7? but no, friggin $9.95! from australia. urgh.. so yeah, i guess im eating alot of money everyday. lol.

i remember my dad told me there's a kinda honeydew which is from japan.. its so sweet and u can smell its existance from a distance away and it costs $30++! he used to buy one to my grandma's place for family gathering, it's so good that in a matter of minutes, its been gobbled up by my relatives. lol.

besides rock melon, i eat alot of grapes, apparently. US seedless grapes. ahahahaha. oh i just had mangoes and a banana.

(I AM VERY SWEET NOW! :X HEEHEE.)

tropical fruits are pure goodness. so what u kiddos doing huh? refuse to eat fruits when ure offered a slice of apple. if me i wld take it and gobble everything up. fruits are good.(oi! why still gt acne growing. wtf.)
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ok, im gone.

p.s: i just realise that ive spent 10 minutes, writing about nothing but telling u how good, fruits can do to your body. wooh! (:

in the mood for something slow.

close your eyes & slow dance with your love one and grind the night away with this song..

if you like songs like this. something slow..

which u can listen to it all night, while u lie on your bed resting and mos likely to think about good old days, sweet memories with your friends/ lover/ family/ anyone..

your room is dark, the only light source are from the vanilla/ lavender candles uve lighted.

the flames flicker in the dark room, filled with sweet sweet vanilla scent(i personally like vanilla scented candles.) and there u are hugging on your bunny plush toy or the softest pillow u have with a silly smile on your face like youre in love. (:

or if all that is too boring, u decide to slow dance on your own. no one's gonna see you, behind the closed door. its only the music, the walls, candles and your bed.(i would do that if my dancing skills are perfecto. its a form of relaxation.. isnt it?)

looking for songs of such? i have a few on my mind now. i love these tracks.. i hope you will too if ure a R&B lover like, me. look it up on youtube for the songs!

titles: (not in alphabetical order. i cant be bothered to place them in order.)

1. Alicia Keys - Feeling U, Feeling Me(Interlude.)
2. Ashanti - Rain On Me
3. Ashanti - Rock Wit U
4. Bobby Valentino - Boy Shorts
5. Bone Thugs & Harmony ft Mariah Carey - Breakdown
6. Cassie - Kiss Me
7. Cassie - When Your Body Is Talkin'
8. Che'nelle - Slow Down(Bobby Valentino's version isnt that bad too. His version is the original version, btw.)
9. Chris Brown - Blindfolded
10. Chris Brown - One Mo' Gin
11. Chris Brown - Take You Down
12. Ciara - Promise
13. Destiny's CHild - Game Over
14. Destiny's Child - Cater 2 U (alternatively, u can listen to Passion's acoustic version. just type "Passion - Cater 2 U" on the youtube search bar. he's awesome. :D)
15. Jamie Foxx - Do What It Do
16. Lloyd ft Ashanti - Southside
17. Mariah Carey - Bliss
18. Mariah Carey - We Belong Together
19. Mariah Carey - Babydoll
20. Ne-Yo - Do You
21. R Kelly - Feelin' On Your Booty
22. R Kelly - Touchin'
23. Usher - Lovers & Friends
24. Usher - Nice & Slow
25. Usher - Burn
26. Usher - You Got It Bad

& MANY MORE, Ive got alot more! But im running out of time to list out everything. More than ever. r&b's the sex. trust me.. :D

Till then. slow dance to all of the above tracks already! (:

sometimes i wonder,

am i too nice or is it just that people are just being selfish when i really need their help.

ok, dear friends.. i know its probably the 12823894th time ure seeing such an entry. but i cant help it.. u can choose to go some other sites now if u want to, im not stoppin you. i guess i just have to let it all out here otherwise i might go crazy one day with all these thoughts or something. i dont know.

i know im not the perfect friend/ daughter/ colleague/ human being one can ever have but i can say that im not the worse.(people who know me well enough, should agree to this.)

i offer help whenever i can. i try to help you as much as possible, but if its not within what i can do den im sorry, i cant..

at times even thou if its beyond what i can do, i wld try to help you. even if the lil help i've given doesnt really do much but at least i took the initiative to, not leaving u alone to "die." on your own.

yes.. so, this is me. i dont ask for anything in return after what ive done. just sincere appreciation from the person uve helped. i guess everyone wants that appreciation after uve done a deed for the person in need.

i got it and im thankful that the person had appreciated for what ive done for him /her. my job is done here.
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just earlier on, i called one of my colleagues to ask that if i can take his shift which is at 12pm instead of my own shift which starts at 10am because im afraid i cant wake up & be at work on time.

(my hectic schedule, i end work at 2am today and the next day's schedule is at 10am. by the time i get home and settle down its already 4am. how am i gonna survive with only 4 hours of sleep to get my engine to start again for teh next day's shift which starts at 10am till 11pm? tell me how.. not talking about teh previous day's shift which is from 12pm till 2am.)

he just answered me, "oh i cant, cos ive already set my time to work at 12pm. im sorry i cant help you."

seriously, i dont see why he cant help me.

(i know i cant be compared with him in work wise cos i admit he is much more faster/ efficient and hardworking than me and hes always punctual and stuff. all teh gd points at work.)

1stly, he had his day off today(date: 25th sept '08) more than enough time to rest and recover.

2ndly, i dont see why he cant help me when ive helped him cover his shift last monday which starts at 12pm-2am, when it was suppose to be my day off and i had to cover for him cos he had something on which he claims its impt, to settle with his wife.(ok not really cover for him but just exchanged day off, his was on teh next day. but not everyone is willing to do that.)

to add on, i had really bad cramps on that fateful day due to my period(1st day). i almost break down. my stomach was churning, beads of sweat run down from my forehead and i had to squat down the whole afternoon cos it was so bad. force myself to stand up cos theres an order to do. working with a fucker who think that he knows everything and it was his 1st day of work.

& this isnt the 1st time. when my best friend had his P.O.P ceremony and he was asking me to go attend the ceremony and go witness him go thru the P.O.P ceremony which i was dying to go to also cos its a 1 time experience to see how its like.

its not everytime u can witness such things. whats more your friend inviting you there.

so back to my best friend asking me to go witness his P.O.P ceremony. i didnt promise him that i can go or not cos i had work that day, just nice it was my colleague's day off. so one day before his day off i asked him..

"hey, can i exchange my day-off with ya? cos its my friend's P.O.P ceremony and he wants me to go witness it. can i?"

his reply just left me in disappoinment. not only me, my friend too.. who was waiting for my answer if i can attend or not. his reply was,

"im sorry i cant exchange with ya, cos it happens to be my wife's day off too. we wld really wsh to spend our day-off together to go out and stuff. why didnt u tell me earlier? ive already made plans."

all i cld say is "naw thats ok, its your day-off anyways. enjoy your day off then. "walk away in disappoinment.

in my heart all i did was scream my arteries off "oh, damnnnnnnnnn.. fuckkkkkkkkkkkk!"

i so wanted to ask him if spending time with his wife is so important that u cant help out your colleague? just one day? its not like u dun see your wife every day before u leave for work and when u get home? both of you live in singapore(hes a foreigner, btw.) not seperately, but teh same house. how much time can the both of you spend with each other? its only 24 hours.

u expect me to help you out cos ube got something really impt to attend to so therefore i agree to exchange my day off. but when i was in need of that day off which i didnt get and i wanna exchange it with ya..

u just turn me down by saying "both my wife & me happen to share the same day-off.. so yeah..."

what more cld i say besides "oh, sorry! thats ok. its ur day off anyway"

?????
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yes, i know after reading this part u might say,

"well, easy. next time when he needs to exchange his day off with ya, refuse to. see? problem solved."

i dun wanna be the bad guy although i always dont my day off, exchanged.

ok, i shouldnt even complain huh? in the 1st place. -_- ok, whatever.

selfish or what? i dont know. u shall judge.
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it's 3 minutes to 5am. goodness gracious me.. this means, only 3 hours of sleeping time.

sigh, why is it a friday night! i hate friday nights! and F1's here in a few days and all the bus routes wld be changed due to the race.

CO-INCIDENTALLY, the race is taking place near, my workplace.. therefore, the bus service im takin wld be affected as well.. ):

hate friday nights, hate F1.(just kidding.)

ok, night world.

it's gonna rain soon. just the way i like it, especially when i'm about to head to bed. (:

i apologise for teh lack of entries. ive got nothing interesting to talk about.

u can just guess by looking at my work schedule, period. that is all i'm gonna say.

i dont want another asswipe to tell me "stop whining! stop telling me teh same thing over and over again. you are not a broken tape recorder." whoever u are. thank you for tellin me that.

i'm just another typical sporean chinese girl who whines all day long. like how she whines and exaggerates that her growing acne is like teh size of a dime. -_- ha ha ha, so not funny.

ok. i will try to look for interesting things to talk about. soooooooooon. stay tune then.

till then, ciao! :D
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the purple lightning appears,
which lit up the sky for less than a second,
and it disappears again with a blink of my eye.
before u know, the roaring begins.

*boom.*
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am i being sensitive...

or

is it people these days are just being superficial? a little over the top. it just bugs me to see/ knw that such people exist.
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sign, tell me about it.

ciao.

l.o.l?

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please do not claim that i am lazy to blog, i can't be bothered to upload pictures just words and words! ok, a video. can? nothing much. heh. (:

i love that song featured in the video, alot. as well as there were munchies lying on teh table beside me, i just had to grab all that stuff it in my mouth and attempt to lip-sing at the same time. lol. ha ha ha.

ok, entertainment! even if it looks stupid, its better than nothing.

i did the video at my grandma's house. i went over to her place earlier on. its my day-off today! that's why. nothing much happened thou..

ok, i'm feelin a lil hungry. i see leftover food in the kitchen. yahoo!

bye folks.

tag my board after watching the stupid-but-nevertheless-wee-bit-of-entertainment video! :D

New song featured. Finally!

After 12million years of that same ol' song playin & playin' I know your ears are bleedin soon from listening to it everytime u visit my blog. HEHE, so Ive decided to be save your ears from bleedin anymore. Ive changed the song!
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Why Should I Be Sad - Britney Spears.

I love this song! :D Britney's latest album, 'BLACKOUT' is good shit. That's my opinion.


:D :D :D

Despite tabloids after tabloids about her on almost every magazine cover or at least 1 page about her.. Goin crazy, wild partying and feeding her kid soda in a milk-bottle.

I think her current album is doing pretty well(TOP CHARTS!) and the songs featured, are pretty good. Go listen to it if you haven't!

My favs are:

1. Get Naked
2. Freakshow
3. Why SHould I Be Sad
4. Break The Ice
5. Toy Soldier
6. Radar
7. Ooh Ooh Baby
8. (Tell Me) What You're Sippin' On {I think this song isnt featured on her album but I see it on Youtube! But I still like it! HEEHEE.}
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So yeah, these are the 8 latest songs by Britney Spears. The 1st 7 tracks are on teh album, itself.

Go search on Youtube and listen to it.. If you like any of the 1st, 7 songs.. Tag my board and leave your email add down, I can send it to you! :D

Or, get me to send you on MSN. [:
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Okay, tht's about it.

Gotta bury my head among the soft pillows now. Ive got a date with my bed. Gotta give some, lovin' (:

I'll try to come up with something interesting to blog about, ASAP.

So... stay tune!

Ciao!

To: REEVE REDDY TAN JUN QI.

May you burn in hell.
(if the font size cld go another 5 times bigger than that, I wld increase it.)

You cunning fucker..

No, wrong.. YOU, CUNNING UNDERAGE fucker.

Only entitled to watching NC-16 movies.

HA HA HA
!!!

*Points middle finger.*
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The above person is not someone who had rejected me straight in the face when I told him that I love him with all my heart.(NO. I WILL NEVER! HE WLD SAY THAT TOO IF HE SEES THIS..)

See the same family name? Tan.

Some know, some dont. ok for those who don't. He's my brother.. The sneaky lil fucker.

Yes, he got a middle name too. His middle name is Reddy!

YA YA, Mine's Carol. What you gonna do about it?! Yes, it's real.. That all 3 of us have gt middle names. I didnt make that shit up if you think I did.

Not convincing enough? Then, bang the wall and DIE!
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I am still wondering why did I bother coloring the fonts when Im supposed to be angry!

All the underlining, increasing the size and bold-ing of fonts is more than enough.

I guess, I just wanna have some fun while being angry at the same time. -_______-

YES!

DAY-OFF!

:D :D i've been waiting for it like forever! so many things had happened this week, thou it's only thursday. what excites me more is that, i'm working at 4pm till closing on friday!

oh shit, fri nights are fucken busy. :/

i realised something. & that is..

can i stop talkin about work for once and have more of a life to talk about somethin else. but on the other hand, that's basically what i go through 6 days a week.

there are alot of things i wanna do.. i wanna apply for unpaid leave! :X my mom's gonna kill me if she sees this.

anyway, here are the things i wanna do..

1. sentosa.

to do what? you ask.

oh, you know the usual.. hit the beach and drool over the sight of bunch of hot tanned and healthy lookin hunks(with their sparkling white smile.) playing beach soccer and cheering when one score a goal for his team.

their abs/ smile makes me melt into a puddle almost, immediately. afterwards, i disappear into the sand or have already been evaporated. the sun is huge with addition of the hot guys nearby, its hotter! which causes quicker evaporation! :D
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HAHAHAHAHAHA!

of cos not, u dumb fockers.

although the above feels real and like it really did occur before but snap* back to reality.. i wouldnt go to such an extent to melt into a puddle almost immediately just because i see their abs and smile. lol, what rubbish.

i wanna go there, cos i need the friggin sun and a game of volleyball! i need teh friggin sun. cos i feel like im fairer now..(althou, im still dark for a chinese no matter how fair i claimed that i've become.) i'm all yellow like im sufferin from jaundice..

which gives the caucasians & blacks..

(uh, might seem racist here but any non-asians, if ure bi-racial.. once youve gt asian blood in you. youre not allowed to say this shit.. even thou uve gt only what? 2% of chinese or any other asian blood.)

more excuse to claim that chinese/ asians are a bunch of yellow-skinned, slanty-eyed people. urgh!

once again im making this shit up. im just coming up with stuff. im bored and sleepy. but of cos i really do need the sun and a game of volleyball. :D
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2. baking.

from cookies/ cupcakes/ muffins/ cake to any other things which involves flour eggs water and an oven.

so that i can improve on my bakin skills and attract more guys. one step closer to gettin a boyfriend is to add magical powder in it and hypnotize them in lovin me cos my cookies taste so gooooood in which if they wld agree to dating me cos they wld have more of the choc-chip cookie or a banana-walnut muffin when we meet-up! :D

sneaky plan huh?

ey, no! i just thought. if that's teh reason why they date me. it's so wrong lah! lol. they date me cos they like the stuff i had baked not date me cos they love me.

aiyah, whatever lah.. as long as it's either way, can already! :b
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HAHAHHAHAHAHA! im just kidding! god, now i realise.. one can really crap when they're bored and tired. for my case even if im occupied with shit to do and definitely not tired.. i wld still crap. :/

ok back to the 'im just kidding' part.. so yes, im kidding, yo! that's so not me. bake good cookies cos i wanna lure guys, eh, so lame!

but i really wanna get my hands & oven busy with bakin cookies and what not cos i have not really done anything major with teh oven yet. only baked pasta and rice. no biggie! ):

not because hari raya is here in 1 month's time! then i wanna snatch the rice bowl of busy malay aunties busy with the cornflakes coated with honey and butter cookies with chocolate-syrup drizzle.

oh, goodness.. those goodies are the bomb! i swear it taste better than pineapple tarts! so i have to be nice to my malay/ muslim friends from now on! so that they wld bring all these goodies for me to feast.

anyways, if they invite me to their house foe visiting, i wouldnt mind being the tester of those lil goodies and tellin em if their mom did a good job or not. HAHAHAHA!

did i just friggin said that? to my malay/ muslim friends.. u didnt see that! did you? :d
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3. catching up with friends!

so that i can bitch with em all day long and tell em about my new crushes.. (psst, ive gt a crush on KEN! barbie's boyfriend. dont tell barbie that, ok! she will kill me.. kelly(barbie's sister.) wld pull my hair!)

& squeal together! if my friend think he's cute too!(if they wanna know how ken looks like.. i wld bring em toys'r'us to take a look! different looks and clothes)

LOL. naw, i really catch up with my friends. they can tell me anything! and of cos i wld tell em about my latest weight-loss plan!(im better than dr phil!) believe it or not? ive dropped 50 pounds. ha ha ha, i wish! i dont buy that either. hur..
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4. picnic.

then i can show off my culinary skills, from sandwiches to finger food. actually ive promised liling we wld have that one day.. when all of us have the same day-off and of cos after qal's P.O.P! :D
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5. paint a huge-ass mural in my room!

if possible, new furnitures. most importantly, spring cleaning!(not that cny's here!)

ive decided to paint a hawaiian-hibiscus in my room. ive got the pictures! and my name on the wall. if u dont know, ive got this huge wall in my room which is screaming to get vandalized! (artistically, of cos.) with bold colors.

if its able to talk it wld probably say 'just f*cking vandalize me like you f*ckin mean it, bitch!'

oops-a-daisy, bitch sounds a lil too much.
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well that's about it. the above 5 things are the current things which i wanna do for now! approve my unpaid leave! its unpaid.... u idiots!

ok, gotta take a break. i mean, sleep. my eyes are dry from teh contacts and im going lunch with parents and grandma. probably spending the whole day there as well. ciao!

see, after alllll.. i donthave a life. (:

i can't be bothered to type formally tonight. capital letter after a full-stop. capital letter for a new sentence. whatever. i can't be bothered. i'm sleepy, just wanna get this shit done and go to bed. (:

so many really thought i'm dating/ attached. bla bla. to the guy ive been mentioning on my past few entries here.

troy is his name. ha ha.

how i wish, but there isnt any one in my life now(xcept friends & family. that's fo sure.) neither a guy i know by the name, troy. i guess im good in all that shit. it's all fo entertainment. im too bored. i needa come up with things to make here seem interesting. otherwise, i would be talkin about the same shit.. daily. which i think im gonna do so. lol.

those know me long enough knew that 'boyfriend' of mine was made up. it doesnt exist. lol.. it isnt fun anymore. everytime i think of the mushy shit that i have to make up here to seem real makes my head near to explosion. imma murder of my brain cells. im gonna be sent to hell for that. hahaha.

so, why am i clearing up some of your doubts about this 'i'm attached to troy' matter? well, i dont know.

but 1stly.. for sure, i know im too bored to start thinking of new shit to update.

'love adventures of caron & troy.' shall die right at this very second. lol.

2ndly, im lazy.

3rdly, i think im crazy 'nuff to think of stuff like that. i must be deprive, you can say that which i dun give a flying f**k now.
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shit happened today for me at work, i nearly shit my pants. i felt lost, i had no mood to work. i know i wasnt the one.. somehow, i was there at the point of time. got questioned by the police, statement taken by the I.O..

after all that crap. i head back to work. & yeah like what ive mentioned earlier on, i had no mood to work and allll i thought in my mind is that..

'oh hell, why the fuck this is happening.' although im the innocent one. i havent got into shit crap like that sucha as, policeman questioning me.

i had no one to turn to. my friends had their own stuff to mind, which i know.. its pretty lame to call them up and tell em,

'hey.. this & this had happened. what should i do.'

i felt like i wanna be that lil girl for once and whine like there's no tomorrow. but i chose not to do that, cos i know.. someone, somewhere wld say..

'oh, caron. quit whining like a bitch already. i am sick and tired of you complaining to me all day.'

i am aware! but can't i? whatever. how i wish this 'troy' guy was for real so that i can tell him whats happening and get him to come up with a solution. not whine to him but sit down together and talk things out, come up with a solution. encouragement in other words.

but where to find one? no. friends had things to do. i dont wanna trouble em.

sometimes, i feel like having someone to tell things to, so that we can work out something and solve it together. with NO strings attached, obviously. not a bf or whatever.. but someone.

and now, i sound desperate. holy fcuk. what is happening to me! seriously..

i guess, this would be something worth while to dream about. hopefully.

ok, there goes.. a new day tomorrow. got work. sigh.. night world.

Time fliesssssss.. It's like they have got wings.

It's September, ALREADY! Happy September Day. HAHA

Most importantly, It's Teacher's Day!

Seriously, I miss celebrating teacher;s day in school for teachers. We buy them gifts. The last time I remembered I baked heart shaped cookies for my teachers when I was sec 4. :D After that, I did nothing already. Too lazy! :X

Ok, Happy Teacher's Day to allllll Teachers in Singapore.

Gotta go, work at sickening 10AM. Urgh!

CIAO!

P.s: Im looking forward to Children's Day thou. :X Which falls on October 1st. Exactly, 1 month away!

I know Im turning 19, no longer a kid.

(If suay & unexpected, I can be a mommy and have a kid of my own. WTH! No offence but that thought scares the shit out of ME. WHATEVER!)

Well, a self-declared KID.
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I want presents, lehhhhhh.. Like how I use to have them back in primary schoooooool.