Oh, hi. Guess what? Im at school now. Waiting for the camp's official opening.. Something happened! What is it? (I got raped. HAPPY?!)

Nah..

(At this point of time, Im still in the mood to dance to 'Outkast's, Hey ya playing on FM98.7)

Something which the world can reward me with this title..... 'Most forgetful person in the whole wide world.' (Thank you, thank you.)

I WAS SUPPOSE TO BRING THE BURNT CD CONTAINING 12 OR MORE SONGS. BUT I BROUGHT THE CD CASE BUT THE CD WASNT INSIDE.

(Do you feel like laughing at me or what?! Dont blame for the cramps uve gotten from all the laughing.)

Ok, so I was rushing earlier on, at around 1:45am? On the computer, I was multi-tasking! Burning songs on CD for the camp, chatting with Jerome on MSN and possibly replying to messages on Friendster.

My dad was rushing me to bed cos he said that I need to wake up early this morning. So, I rushed whatever I had to do, online like a crazy-haired bitch.

I finished transferring the songs on the CD and I was so happy, a success(It wont be later on.) I was done with my replies on Friendster and obviously done with the conversation with Jerome. & I logged off and went to bed.

The best part?! I thought I had put the CD in the case. So I just put the CD in my bag and went to bed. So I just reached school awhile ago, Elijah was asking for the CD and he was worried that ive forgotten about burning CD and stuff. So yeah I told I did bring the CD. Relieved..

Never did I know that the DAMNED CD isnt in the case. URGH! So I took out the case from my bag, wanted to play the songs. But hell yeah it wasnt inside. I was like yelling my nuts off. Literally.. -_-

Im here trying to find a way to burn the songs in the other CD ive bought.(I bought 2, just in case. Looks like I NEED IT NOW! Thanks to Suf. She got me to buy 2, just in case.. Again.) Lucky I brought my mp3 with me. All that work for nothing! :/ So now you think I deserve that award very much? LOL.

Okay over with the forgetful side of me.
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Video call, conversation with Surf. 2 hours! While I was over at my grandma's.. LOL.

(Pictures are click-able.)

Pretty clear that she's away. You can see(Click to see, you cant see it from here!) that she says she will be right back. LOL..


I was still at it. 'HEH! BANGS! HOW Y'ALL THINK?'


Finally she's back. Ok, the lighting at my grandma's place suck ballzsx. So gloomy and stuff. :/ (LOOK AT THAT FACE OF HERS! HAHAHHAA.)

So we acted all insane to songs. From Tarzan & Jane to Barbie girl. OMG! She knows about what I did during the Sex bomb song. Ok, Suf like what I said.. It was all of a sudden, I didnt plan it. HAHAHAHA!

Side note: I think my teeth's pretty straight! Or maybe it just these 3 pictures seems like it? LOL, I bet alot of you are bored about the fact that I think that my teeth's isnt straight and stuff.

Perhaps I dont need braces at all. LOL, do I need it? TELL ME ABOUT IT. HA HA HA(:

Yes yes I know you wanna scream 'CARON'S ACTING CUTE!.' YEAH SO? :X

Okay, that's about it. More people are coming in, I see many alienic faces. Actually Im there to help. Not a camper, camp commander's my given title. Sounds nice? LOL. Its only a title! Ive got orders to follow..

HEH, CIAO!

Think this Nick Pitera dude is a freak? Well I think he's awesome. How many male singers you've come across cld sing like a woman? 1? 2? None? LOL. He's one of them and I like the way he sang this song. :D Enjoy(Wait for it to load as well.)

Well you can check his other videos out as well on Youtube, (Just type in 'Nick Pitera' on the search bar and u're able to locate him. His user id is 'Goonieman86.' LOL. Easier refrence!)

Somewhere over the rainbow is a great song for kids and something u wanna listen to when u wanna fall asleep and have really nice dreams of rainbows, unicorns, beautiful african daises, happy children running doing cartwheels and showering candies? :] I cld picture that in my mind now!

Hahaha

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I wanted to talk about some stuff, but I guess I dont have the time for it now. I'll probably do so at night. I've got an interview at 3:45pm later on(But I have to leave the house earlier.), and seriously.. I have no idea where is the place. Even thou the interviwer smsed me the address,

Nagarathar building, 5 Tank road. Anyone knows where's this place?! Ive checked the map on Streetdirectory.com(Does it have a '.sg' behind it? I forgot. Oh shiet.) It's opp UE Square. So I drop off at Novena right? But my dad says, nearer if I drop off at City Hall. -_-

Urgh! I'm gonna go figure out myself later on. :/

Well gotta prepare. Enjoy the video.. Have a good yawn and a nap, you wld realise that you're sucking your thumb like a baby when u're awake. LOL

I just sneezed, 'Ah-CHOOOOO.' Ok, random. Heh..

So Imma potential hair-dresser, only hair-dresser for my own hair. I trimmed my bangs, got sick of it. It looks fine! LOL. I can sweep it to the side if it looks weird. How did I do it? With the help of friendly Youtube users posting up tutorial videos, of cos.



Some said Imma huge youtube fan. Maybe? So here are a few things I love about Youtube..

1. The videos are free to watch.
2. You get to listen to the latest songs which are not yet aired in your local radio stations.
3. You get to watch funny videos where the local tv doesnt play.
4. You get to see talents which you're aware that you cant see it on the streets of Singapore.
5. You get to know stand up comedians, u have never heard of when u're young.. After watching their videos on youtube(E.g: Russell Peters.)
6. You can watch your favourite soap operas/ movie again! If you do not have the DVDs with you.(Thou it's illegal. But THATS THE PART EVERYONE GOES TO YOUTUBE FOR! LOL.)
7. Most importantly, you get to interact with the other youtube users.

So yes, I LOVE YOUTUBE. :D I joined Youtube since 2006. Till now, Ive watched a total of 8,758 videos. (: Youtube actually has this counter in your acct which keeps track how many videos you've watched. To some of you, it's not alot. But bear in mind, I DUN WATCH JAPANESE ANIME. What IF I DID? LOL.

So yeah, I watch all kinda videos. From COMEDY(Stand-up comedies are my favourite!), ENTERTAINMENT, CARTOONS, SOAP OPERAS, DRAMAS & MANY MORE!

:D
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Oh, so random. & To, Youtube! IM ONE OF YOUR BIGGEST FAN! HEH.

Before, I END. I promised to make a entry about how my friends think of ME. So, the entry is still in process.. It will be on the site, soon! :D

ADIOS.

Caron's pretty imaginative! She's better off being a script writer or something! I wouldnt mind working as that full time, provided they're willing to hire a ITE graduate.

Random.
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This lil video makes people's day. No its not another attempt of me tring to lip sing to lady marmalde or mambo no. 5.

He's everyone's favourite comedian/ actor. Everyone knows him at the age of 5 or younger.. I guess? Everyone knows him!(Excluding those who pass away before he started acting, those who are blind and some others.) Even his haters know him? But he's too funny to be hated! Lol.

Guess who?!



You're it!

It's MR BEAN. HE'S DANCING. HAHAHA. Enjoy. :D (Be patient and wait for it to load, there isnt a need to be 'kan chiong' You can watch it over and over again. Hee hee)

I love the song too! It's the bomb. HEH.

I'm not on the bright side, ever since yesterday. If I could, I wld love to put on that sad smile where ever I go, without being questioned by familiar faces with the usual questions..

"Why? What's wrong?"

"Are you feeling alright?"
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Well I don't! I feel like pouring my unhappiness to my closest friends. But I can't, everytime I try to.. Nothing comes out. I tell myself I am strong. I am gonna go through this and put up that smile time and time again. How many times u see a girl smile like an idiot after being put down? Not many. Some just cry and cry, the others just pull that long face for the rest of the day and refuse to talk to you.

I truly respect those who are strong on the inside and outside as well. I seem strong on the outside, but deep inside me, it's weak.(Not all the time.) But I dont show it.

At times, I just wanna curl up and cry, sobbing hard. I need someone by my side to tell me,

"Caron, it's ok. It's fine. You've done good.."

I need a shoulder to lean on, I need a helping hand. But are they any kind souls out there? I may sound desperate in a way. But every other person needs a helping hand, a shoulder to lean on when they're feeling down, not in a very good mood, etc. Agreed?

Is that too much to ask for? I wonder.

I try to be the best, but I know I'll never be. I'm no perfectionist, well I try to be. But I realise being too much of a perfectionist is a problem too.
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I'm trying to be positive nowadays, after reading up quite alot from books, magazines of any sort, websites too. Those who offer good advice.. Those that teach 'Ways to be positve.' or 'How to boost your self-esteem.' and even 'Gaining self-confidence.'

One always say 'Confidence is sexy.' True enough, I've seen it with my own eyes. I've got friends who are like that.

Where's confidence? I'm still searching for it. If it really makes a person look totally different. I wld pay a million bucks, if I'm loaded.. If confidence can be purchased. Everyone wld be queueing up for it.
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Sighhhhhh....

these 2 pictures, brings back memories. :D one is taken at school out of boredom, the other's my friend, saifuddin.. which ive taken a random picture of him & did some editing. (:

ohh, i need ideas for new stuff. im into hawaiian hibiscus now. it's soooo pretty, i mean they look a million times better than those big red ones where u see at your neighbour hood park.

i have to blog about something, something interesting. heh. but that we'll wait till tonight im at my grandma's place now.. all that aroma coming from the kitchen is making me hungry.

everyone knows that their grandma/ grandparents can cook really well, so is my grandma! lol. heh, till tonight! ciao!

i look burnt. lol.

since i have not posted a horrifying picture of myself for long. i shall do so now. lol. :D
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short entry:

attended a 2 days course. yesterday and today.. 9am-6pm on both days. didnt bore me that much, several on & off.. sleepy sensations. lol. but i didnt doze off. the trainer was cool, interesting. told us a lot of little stories, besides what we were supposed to focus on. heh.

so after the course yest, met li ling at city hall for dinner. we had our dinner and marina square. talked alot.. like we always do. slacked at esplanade area after dinner till 11plus. talked about everything from migrating to family and little stuff and yeah, bitching about people. lol.

love yesterday night's weather. wind blowing across our faces. laughters from other small little neighbouring groups cld be heard. it was nice, people taking pictures of the night view with their huge ass DSLR cameras on tripod stands.

random teenage boys skate boarding. couples doing nothing but simply engaging in a heart-to-heart conversation, holding hands and gazing into each other eyes. to cut short, enjoying each other's company. (:

while i took random night shots with liling's cybershot phone. of cos it isnt as great as pictures taken by professional DSLR cameras but it was better than a 2 megapixel nokia phone's camera. she have not sent it to me yet. if she do, i'll upload it here. :D i'm gonna chase her for it.

ha ha ha, liling if youre seeing this! AHEM*

took a train home and voila, im back. :D

actually im lazy to elaborate further, so i cut everything sort. heh..

ok.. night world.

i know its pretty lame to have small lil arguments over small little unimportant issues with your parents. if there's a possibility not to argue, by all means, dont do so...

(it's a warning. u gotta listen to good ol' caron.)

1stly, u can never be the winner.(for me, at least. i know i always lose out when they resort to violence. that's my dad. he thinks yr' 2008, the 21st century.. is still kampong-living, long kang-fish catching days.)

2ndly, they wld start announcing death penalties/ sentences & what's not.("you'll be grounded till i say youre able to do this and that!")

ending off with, 'may god have mercy on your soul.'(isnt that what the judge in the court says when ure getting a death sentence of that sort? lol.)

3rdly, when you start protesting that it's unfair and claim that they are picking on you.. they firmly say no and say your actions had made them mad and we deserved the consequences given!
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urgh! if u havent come across such matters. please do so and see your parents start acting like chameleons~ go figure! :D (if at the age of nearly 20. u have no idea whats a chameleon please go google/ yahoo/ youtube/ wikipedia it.)

if youre thinking charmander's a chameleon.. the answer is.. NO.!

CHARMANDER isnt a chameleon! it's a dragon who spits fire! -_- stop thinking about pokemon. uve already finish fantasizing about having sex with misty/ ash when u were 10-12!
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why am i going round and round from talking about how unfair parents are at times till charmander and fantasizing about having sex with ash/ misty?!(not me. i dindt have such thoughts. it's YOU.) -_- lol.

thus, i'm random. :D

had your parents ever quarrelled over the stupidest things? if your parents havent, mine do! all the time.


so now my dad is fuming because my mom isnt back yet. it's 1:44am. -_- my mom smsed to say that she'll be out with her friends for supper. wont be back early.. and i didnt know she smsed because i left my phone at the living room. so he got me to call and ask her whereabouts. so she told me that she had already smsed me.. my bad, i didnt tell my dad about it for this part. but i didnt know she smsed, normally she wld call.


lady luck isnt on my mom's side. her phone is down, she called numerous times home but it doesnt get through. so she smsed me instead. so ok, fine. mom smsed to inform. i called her and she told me. then so be it.. its not like shes out till this time or later all 7 days in a week. so she doesnt deserve some free time to herself to unwind and have supper with her friends? what nonsense.


& oh, because my dad is unhappy about it. i get into trouble.. i have to do all the calling and pass messages to my mom.. command made by dad to come home like immediately?! plus.. it's even more annoying when i asked my mom to come home to that the 'emperor'(my dad) wld stop nagging.. and yes, world peace. ok, at least peace in the house.

but hell no, my mom decides to 'defy' him and say 'i am going supper ok? IGNORE WHAT HE HAD SAID.' uh, are u asking ME to ignore or simply you, yourself.. to ignore?! i cant ignore. well i try to, but i get your shit. he hollers at me like im the one having supper now, outside.

she doesnt listen... ok...

what about me?! 'DOOM'S DAY' (insert a sound track to mean.. doom's day?)

he starts cursing and swearing like high heavens and dark hell.
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at times i wld like to tell em like.. 'MOM AND DAD. DONT YOU KNOW WHAT COMPROMISING MEANS?!'

its not like every other day its your freaking way.. and neither every freaking hour/ minute/ second is your way, EITHER. the world doesnt revolve around one person.. urgh.!

i am not on anyone's side now. both are at fault.

one just goes nuts because of a small minor reason, the other just refuses to do what is told even after hearing that he's yelling at the top of his voice in the background.
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tell me, this argument is silly/ stupid/ funny or WHAT? maybe all 3. plus.. annoying.

TO ME IT IS ANNOYING.

new layout, the previous one screwed up. i was too lazy to look into it and fix the error. so i changed the layout instead.

thinking back, i used to be some html freak, i read html codes and many more. i cld stay up till the wee hours and fix my blog codes like i am some ultimate blogger(not.)

people, tell me i should go do something really crazy(like eyelash extentsions/ acrylic nails or breast argumentation of that sort?) or i shouldnt? LOL. im kidding! why would i go get those done. lol, esp breasts argumentation is just insane. ha ha ha.

ok, im blabbering. guess what some fucker on youtube called me a blabber mouth, wtf? i dont even know who he/ she is. yes, im quite active on youtube. heehee. i can show you awesome videos on youtube.(lesbians make out, japanese girls getting their breasts groped.)

wtf is wrong with me!? why do i talk like a guy now, i sound like some sexually deprived man who visits geylang frequently, all the whores know me there, i cld be a pimp if im rich. wait, if im sexually deprived, why would i be active on the streets of geylang?! LOL.

omg, caron.. omg.

ok, bye. im off getting my pay cheque. HEEEEE.
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p.s: the last paragraph doesnt make any sense, im too bored.. like always. so i came up with such stuff.

5 facts:(random.)

1. im not a man.
2. im definitely straight.
3. i am not deprived from sexual needs or anything of that sort.
4. i go to geylang for food not pimps and whores.
5. japanese girls are noisy and gross.. only typical slanty(non slanty ones also.) eyed, chinese male species adore them. -_-
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girl's point of view after watching several japanese girls getting laid by old japanese men.

(omg, gross. did you see how noisy they were!? i dont think they're pretty. down-there is pretty unsightful too! omg, im barfing real hard now. i might turn anorexic looking at thoise japanese girls and whats with, SCHOOL GIRLS theme all the time!? look at those men, they can be my dad.. or even grandfather! these old men might suffer a heart attack too. LOL)

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guys' point of view after watching several japanese girls getting laid by old japanese men.

(HOLY COW! did you see how cute they were on bed. oh god.. how i wish one is beside me right now. the way they scream and moan is just 'OH-SO-KAWAII' singaporean girls arent near as cute as em in anywhere, most of them are just poseurs. they look ultra cute in their school skirt! i dont mind if whats below is unsightful, as long as i getta screw one of them and moans this way.. im contented! and wtf is that old men doing?! HEY! YOU SR CITIZEN! bugger off! go water plants, pluck weeds or something. ure too old for that. i am 1million times better than ya! hands off, stop touching her breasts.. ur wrinkled hands needs ironing. bugger off, I SAY!)
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LOL, that is like over. i am laughing at the guys' point of view. LOL. isnt that true, alot of guys i know, go crazy over japanese porn. like they are the best videos ever created on earth. they are even jucier than hollywood movies.

huh? guys, you gotta admit. -_- stop denying.. already!

something new, something slow. you gotta love this song as much as i do. :D
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so i spent my wkends at home. suppose to have plans ahead but broke, timing aint right. urgh, oh ya.. im getting my pay cheque tomorrow! yahoo. congratulate me..

anyway, can someone just stab me heard and throw me in the cement mixer after stabbing!? i thought.. 'hey i wld do something fun at home, on a sunday evening.' so i decided to go back a few butter cookies and drizzle em with melted chocolate or something.

but I DIDNT! i even wrote a list of things needed and stuff it in my bag pack before heading out. i reached Giant and pushed the shopping cart around the hyper mart like im gonna buy groceries and daily necessities for a week's usage. LOL.

and i walked around like im gonna buy the whole of giant and try to squeeze every thing in the shopping cart. so i started looking for the items for my cookies and i place everything the cart den i continue walking around.. something hit me(i mean not physically hitting me, but mentally.) i decided not to bake.

so i left Giant hypermart like a loser without any shopping bags. i wasted bus fare to and fro. so dont you feel like killing MOI?

i am lazy.
i am crazy.

urgh.

i end.
i say bye.