*foul language might be used, viewer discretion is advised. *

previously, i had blogged about my dad being a jerk in the family, towards me, in my previous online diary(livejournal.). i thought that would be the one and only post, ever. but hell no. it hit me, once again. i try not to but i can't help it.

how i wish i could scream at him in his face to ask him to stop nagging and die on the spot. i would cry, but i would certainly get over it within a week or lesser. who is he to shed another tear for? so what if he's my dad. someone whom i share the same family name?

i know i am bring crude and i am saying this out of anger.. but i just wish he would disappear. life would be much better without his prescence. when he was away on business trip.. the only difference? the house is much more peaceful. that's all.. i cant wait to shout 'hoo-ray' and pop champagne if he's away.

i am just waiting for the time to save enough money and move out of the house, give my mom money, every month and meet her outside. i dont wanna see his face.

whatever for, if im older and im rich, i will send u to the nursing home.. and in the years to come, u can complain to the other old folks that your daughter is un-fillial. why? you made me do it. be happy there's someone sending money in every month so that you can live there till the day you die.

i dont care where im shifting to and whom im shifting with, as long as i dont get to see his face, do whatever i want. i am happy.

and people, if u know where i was working probably 2 weeks ago. let me tell you, i got terminated. for some reasons.. he made a big fuss. he doesnt gives me allowance for work every morning. when my pay day arrives i still give him a sum even thou he doesnt contribute to anything.. when he is aware that i got terminated, he makes the most comments and the biggest fuss compared to my mom. my mom said nothing..

who are you to make a huge fuss over this? i am working for my own sake and mom's, definitely not you. you sound as if, you begged the boss to let me have the job. you sound as if the boss was your pal since your 10 years old. you made it sound as if youre one of the shareholder of the company. you're just another normal singaporean like anyone.. whose 51 this year.

if i dont look for a job, i am the one whose suffering because i would not have an income. not you?
why do you sound like im the sole bread winner in the family? oh i forgot youre self centered and just like any man(not all men, a handful), an ego-maniac.

why not get your arse to thailand instead? since you love there so much. you almost worship the people there. just shift there and dont come back. again, without your prescene, we will definitely do well and we will NOT be suffering.
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i am really desperate to be 21 RIGHT NOW, get my arse to new zealand.. or shift to somewhere else in Singapore. but where can i get all the money?!

can i rob the bank? please.