almost an hour and a half more to 6pm. i am getting bored, i am getting restless, and im gonna fall asleep soon. :X

cindy's in the room watching another korean soap opera of hers and sobbing her eyeballs out, in the other room. while im here blogging. im done with the cooking now just waiting for the guests to arrive to start dinner. lol..

i am so sleepy. i need red-bull, it keeps me awake, it doesnt give me wings, a gimmick? more like a lie. ah! ok.. random.

ooh! im going off, gotta do something to keep me awake. :D

cya.

it's freaking 0519 now. (:

i am currently at cindy's place. she's asleep, i am still wide awake. idling. -_- but i gotta get outta here soon, need some eye shut. some ex-school mates will be over, later on for dinner. steamboat! (: long-awaited and it's here ...finally.

was out since the afternoon, met up surf, had lunch and collected the thumb drive from here. after which met up, cindy.. collected the phone back. acc that hungry lady to ljs for her late lunch.. proceeded to take a bus to Giant. got everything we need for the steam boat dinner. bid fare well and i went home. (:

got online and she complaint that she's dying of boredom. got me to get my ass to her place to spend the night, thus it would easier for me to go to the markey with her in the morn to get other stuff for the steamboat, dinner. so i persuaded mom to let me out, got downstairs and hailed for a cab, it's freaking 2am by then.. got to her place. she watched korean drama while i idled, read magazines.. and she left to her room talking on the phone while i surfed the net, soon it was 4am, she suggested to have mac's breakfast. lol, so we went for brekfast at mac's.

hot cakes, big breakie. :D i'm still full.. ahhh~

soooo, currently she has already hit the sack, i'm stilll in her study room, typing. -_-

ok, time for eye-shut.. long day later on. more updates. WOOOH. :D

cya. (:

*foul language might be used, viewer discretion is advised. *

previously, i had blogged about my dad being a jerk in the family, towards me, in my previous online diary(livejournal.). i thought that would be the one and only post, ever. but hell no. it hit me, once again. i try not to but i can't help it.

how i wish i could scream at him in his face to ask him to stop nagging and die on the spot. i would cry, but i would certainly get over it within a week or lesser. who is he to shed another tear for? so what if he's my dad. someone whom i share the same family name?

i know i am bring crude and i am saying this out of anger.. but i just wish he would disappear. life would be much better without his prescence. when he was away on business trip.. the only difference? the house is much more peaceful. that's all.. i cant wait to shout 'hoo-ray' and pop champagne if he's away.

i am just waiting for the time to save enough money and move out of the house, give my mom money, every month and meet her outside. i dont wanna see his face.

whatever for, if im older and im rich, i will send u to the nursing home.. and in the years to come, u can complain to the other old folks that your daughter is un-fillial. why? you made me do it. be happy there's someone sending money in every month so that you can live there till the day you die.

i dont care where im shifting to and whom im shifting with, as long as i dont get to see his face, do whatever i want. i am happy.

and people, if u know where i was working probably 2 weeks ago. let me tell you, i got terminated. for some reasons.. he made a big fuss. he doesnt gives me allowance for work every morning. when my pay day arrives i still give him a sum even thou he doesnt contribute to anything.. when he is aware that i got terminated, he makes the most comments and the biggest fuss compared to my mom. my mom said nothing..

who are you to make a huge fuss over this? i am working for my own sake and mom's, definitely not you. you sound as if, you begged the boss to let me have the job. you sound as if the boss was your pal since your 10 years old. you made it sound as if youre one of the shareholder of the company. you're just another normal singaporean like anyone.. whose 51 this year.

if i dont look for a job, i am the one whose suffering because i would not have an income. not you?
why do you sound like im the sole bread winner in the family? oh i forgot youre self centered and just like any man(not all men, a handful), an ego-maniac.

why not get your arse to thailand instead? since you love there so much. you almost worship the people there. just shift there and dont come back. again, without your prescene, we will definitely do well and we will NOT be suffering.
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i am really desperate to be 21 RIGHT NOW, get my arse to new zealand.. or shift to somewhere else in Singapore. but where can i get all the money?!

can i rob the bank? please.

Holy cow!

I deleted my last post and re-entered a new post. Closed the window and had copied all the things which I've typed earlier on. Opened a new window and wanna paste it in.. It's gone. Wasted 10 minutes of my time, typing everything.

I deleted my last post because I think it looks weird like acting all cute but it isnt cute at all!? Whatever.

Now I declare that I am too lazy to re-call and re-enter everything which I did earlier on. Who knows it's gone again.

I just increase the skin's font, the font size for my entries is wayyy too small. Btw, I am at grandma's house now. (: Going off soon.

I've got 3 Spongebob Squarepants video in my mp3 player now. I know the screen isnt big enough. But I'm still able to watch. :D Anyone knows which site allows me to download cartoons and videos? Tell me about it! (:

I just downloaded two of a kind videos, at home. But I dont know if it's able to work. Maybe I will ask the user in youtube to send me the videos if possible. Oh, I'm a big fan of the olsen twins when they were younger.

Now? They havent made any nice sitcoms, thou. Only movies and seriously.. I never go gar gar over their recent movies like New York Minute? I love 'It takes two!' Those who know which movie I'm referring to, good for you. Those who don't. Go read up then. It's similar to 'The Parent Trap' movie. (:

Okay, gotta run! Cya!
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Audrey, if you're reading this.

P.S: Stop asking me about _____. There's nothing special, really.

Don't you mention the name here, OK?!

I'm going to Giant & Ikea later on, alone. :D

I need to get a new fan and night light. The children's section at Ikea looks interesting. I shall go explore later on.

I love the star lights and the bug shaped light. Woooooo. (:

I've been eating alot of 'eyes-cleam' lately. I love the rum & raisin from Haagen Dazs! I shall order that, the next time I visit Haagen Dazs.

I havent got the pictures from Cindy yet. We had dinner yesterday at Tampines Mall. Hopefully steamboat will be on this, Saturday. It's been LONG since we last sat down and have meals together.

The last time I had meals with PP, Joyce & Cindy(The 3 of them TOGETHER) was 3 years ago?! :X

When we were back at CCSS. Then I didn't manage to get up to Sec 5. We lead lives seperately. Tsk, that shouldnt be the way.

Oh-kay, gotta run. Or else it's too late. See ya! (:

Caron couldn't take it anymore and yelled with all her might.

"FUCK THE SCAB!"

i am so sorry that i have to start off with a 'f' word.


do you think i like using the 'f' word?! if it won't for the irritating, fugly scab on my knee, i wouldn't swear as much(at least not using on the title, itself.)


"just a scab, what's the big deal?"


oh, hey.. it's the biggest deal, ever. ok? it's bigger than the 'deal or no deal' game show that airs on channel 5, whatever.

1. i have to resist myself from scratching it.
   
2. i have to keep myself from touching the wound.
   
3. i have to remind myself every second, it'll heal as days passes by.
   
4. i have to deal with the fact that it doesnt heal after a week.

ftw?!


i couldnt care much, i pick the scab off every now & then.(i know, it's gross but i dont care anymore! it's not like i had asked you to pick the scab for me?!)


i touch the wound lie nobody's business(i dont care if it's infected. ive poured freaking hydrogen peroxide, which feels like red ants biting on my flesh and savouring it. i had to control myself from screaming in pain.. BUT, it didnt help at all in healing.)


i reminded myself, but it didnt heal. so fuck it!


i am still dealing with the fact that it's not healing. gotten worse, actually..
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ta-dang!?


"it doesnt look that bad lah. you're exaggerating lah, caron."


oh yeah? it looks like freaking bullet holes from here.


am i robocop or something? getting shot for more than 6 times on my knee area and all i got is dented markings on my knee cap?

i forgot, i am robocop.


whatever. im trying to make a joke here. laugh with me, ha ha ha~ -_-
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maybe i should see a doctor and ask for proper medication/ cream to apply.


my eyes are dry and i'm going to bed soon.

see ya! (:

screw livejournal. i couldnt post a single entry the whole day. now i am back to blogger again.. tried to edit my downloaded template, but i didnt complete it.

1) i am very tired. i've been awake since 9am this morn.
2) due to not touching blogger for quite some time, i have forgotten how does the html codes, work. i need to go figure out again..

my eyes are cocked now, my eyelids are super heavy too. that is why i cant concentrate.

time for bed, laters. (: